-05:00 am-
Come lull me back to sleep
Darling your actions are cheap
In the agonizing moment
Where past and future collide
I swear I could see a light behind those dead eyes
Revealing your ever present disguise
You forfeit with a knife in your hand
I recoil unable to stand
What promise of love, time couldn't demand
Always leaving, hoping for more
Oh we've been here before
I can show you constellation of scars left by traces of your razor sharp words
Unheard, discarded
So the world carries on
Your thoughts plague my mind
No clue as to who's leaving who behind
Oh my darling this is an everyday grind
How I wish to find the way
To my dismay I just feel betrayed
Convinced I should've never stayed
Pills soften the days
In a flurried haze voices reach out to me
Saying: "baby worse things happen at sea."

I raise a glass to all the boys that broke my heart
To all their words that tore me apart
To all the ones I knew were wrong from the very start
But I still believed we could work it out
If only..if only we took a different route
If I had said this and not that
If only you were a swan and not a rat.
If only If only,
But it wasn't like that
Wish I knew the remedy to you
I wish I could create a time booth
Then I would say run run away
Go before they, stray you, heart
I was the one to change your heart
If only you didn't break that fragile thing apart
I raise my glass, for you, my dearest ones

The silence seeps through the cracks of my house
I tiptoe around it, silence resembling that of a mouse
Through the rubble that was left in the wake of my mind
I wonder what are the memories that I’ll leave behind
Thoughts crash against hard realisations
The body, like scorched earth is devoid of sensation
Pushing through hellish temptations
I swear I could feel the beginning of a new vibration
Suddenly I can see light flooding through the cracks
Scars on my skins, provide a map of painful tracks
But the feeling of loneliness has loosened its grip
The new balance of the world begins to tip
The vail between the past and present has now been shut
A mind, once innocent now has turned corrupt
Yet through the misery, darkness and dismay
A lingering feeling of home still remains
The sunsets between us are never that far
Just wish upon, as old tales go, on the evening star
This world will depart but we will build one a new
For the people, for me, for him and for you

Come lull me back to sleep
Darling your actions are cheap
In the agonizing moment
Where past and future collide
I swear I could see a light behind those dead eyes
Revealing your ever-present disguise
You forfeit with a knife in your hand
I recoil unable to stand
What promise of love, time couldn't demand
Always leaving, hoping for more
Oh we've been here before
I can show you constellation of scars left by traces of your razor sharp words
Unheard, discarded
So the world carries on
Your thoughts plague my mind
No clue as to who's leaving who behind
Oh my darling this is an everyday grind
How I wish to find the way
To my dismay I just feel betrayed
Convinced I should've never stayed
Pills soften the days
In a flurried haze voices reach out to me
Saying: "baby worse things happen at sea."

I see a glimpse of hope
In those who unapologetically scream
I don't give a ****
I'm
Stuck between the nagging thought of self realization
And the sensations of guilt and freedom
Just as Rome wasn't built in a day
It'll take me a some time to take away the person that I really am
Yet I persevere to ram my head against the wall of perpetual instability
Held back by the humility of my elders
I carry on
Just as those before me and those long after I'm gone
I like millions of other will stay strong against the perpetual void
I am but a contextual being of my surroundings
Howling at the every day grind
Dreaming of the day I will leave it all behind
And be free
Free like the wind in children's stories
Constantly fighting against being perceived and counted as one of these bodies
An individual
A life
Full of strife and longing
Belonging to no one but myself
And maybe fairytales belong on a dusty old shelf
But as long as I breathe I will always believe and never forsake myself

The moon lights a path
And just as the wrath of the sea
Is calmed by the eclipse
So do your lips, calm the storm within me
I'm no longer able to see hate
For it would berate the rose tinted world in front of me
Cast between the sunset and sunrise
I devise plans of how this feeling could last forever
Every touch is a love letter
Every kiss I will always remember
And in December when the dead earth cracks
I will be safe in your embrace
No trace of scars left behind by past ghosts
No room in my heart for the old hosts
Your eyes flicker with fire
Reflecting age old desires but not for lust
Rather for the notions of trust
When all else is reduced to dust
I know that I will have you by my side
To welcome the incoming tide
And just as the wrath of the sea
Is calmed by the eclipse
So do your lips, calm the storm within me.

As the sun sets beyond
The stars begin to bloom in the night sky
The final emotions of sadness begin to die
It would be a lie to say
That the memory of you fades
It will always remain
In the crevices of my heart
But I am not Moses
I cannot make the seas part
To show you the love I have for you
And in the constant struggle of staying true
To the universes tube
I dance
Not a fleeting romance
But an intoxicating trance
Waking up is painful but necessary
And the straining words of our last goodbyes
Will be the finally echoes of our past
I have cast my final tears
And in the final cheers of the new year
I will face my fear
And know that tonight with the last chime of the clock
I have loved you for the last time