Harder to leave then to fight on a daily. I rather be caked with disease then to feel helplessly lonely. A drift at sea, It wasn’t you it was me. It wasn’t I it was she. It wasn’t her it was he. Who am I supposed to believe? Not you or myself, nor anyone else in between. Deception to deceive, a lesson to conceive. Depression well achieved. Corruption every since a seed. Disruption full of anger, hatred and greed. Will I succeed? Intuition well perceived. Perception of misery I heed. Their full of questions while I’m empty as I bleed. Aggression to relieve. Oppression we receive. Possessions we no longer need is love forever Anchored never to be set free.

Innermost thoughtful verbosity, desire lost philosophy,  misery phase cloudy darken days eternity pollinate sorrows validate emotional tormented hours. Time over lived Soul never paid ****** tolls. Antisyzygies, mystery, history never sold  failures unfold.  Always talked of ups and downs, the round and rounds, Voices tuned In and out of sound. Those who you love are those you keep around. Bound to hit the ground **** bound to have no out of bounds. Please pronounce specific reasons and keyed seasons why rhinoceros differ from clowns. Who your eternally meant to be, is your desire gracefully. Patiently speaking are those who embrace harden or weaken? Are those who loss haste starving or feeding, harvesting or greeting? you choose to pardon your heathens and I choose to marching and teaching. County blues never told proudfull news. Sometimes what she got to do, is what she's got to do. I tip my hats off to all of you. No *** for tat when played a fool. If you can't be used then  your useless, so it looks like we're all the tools. Mustn't be a difficult one to use, So bounce the ball, hop the wall and come back to rule And if you listen to my decisions, you'll learn to speak into your own existence. Your the maker of your dreamful visions or the maker of the bars which old your prison. How's that for tonight's lesson? Doesn't that sounds like a blessing? Indeed so good night you-all and keep on guessing. Because I plant the seed and it's not one of greed, but of needs not to be questioned. Understood essence.

Cause I can't be
Your restless refugee
On the run
Baby I'm not the one
And I can see
Endless possibilities
Without your guns
Baby your lies are done  

And I'm ashamed
Ashamed to become astray
Lost at all cost
Unable to maintain
This time fourth
And forever more stuck in parlay
Proceed to ones greed
Greed of today

Cause I can't be
Your restless refugee
On the run
Baby I'm not the one
And I can see
Endless possibilities
Without your guns
Baby your lies are done

Hallowed life
Life full of grief
Sacred sacrifice
upon a thief
Hobbies of robberies
Nightmare full of dishonesty
Lust for guts and glory
Never bothered me

Cause I can't be
Your restless refugee
On the run
Baby I'm not the one
And I can see
Endless possibilities
Without your guns
Baby your lies are done

Both hunger and thirst
Plundering lies
Lies came first
Followed by the cursed
Wasn't for the rain
The pain would never hurt
Coming undone
Just a negative sum

Cause I can't be
Your restless refugee
On the run
Baby I'm not the one
And I can see
Endless possibilities
Without your guns
Baby your lies are done

Harvesting hateful desires
Disgraceful taste
behind his gun to expire
blast comes the wrath
before the fire
Fountain the blood
thick as mud
dresses his attire

Cause I can't be
Your restless refugee
On the run
Baby I'm not the one
And I can see
Endless possibilities
Without your guns
Baby your lies are done

To many try’s
I can’t even explain
Will you take notice
The look in my eyes
The sound of my name
The truth in lies
Is a rose in pain
Waiting under this cloud
Drenched in flames
Your losing me now
The taste of shame
I’m failing u some how
It’s all the same
Finally now
Will you set me free
My better half
Washed away at sea
Maybe I’m not ready
To lose this life
Everyone hurts me
Rather an edge of a knife
Can’t stay away
You hold my heart
The games we play
To drive us apart
I will win your love today
Well that’s a start
Shopping spree
Of sweet remedies
Filling my cart

Holding my breath so I can take control.
Feelings unrest, I can’t seem to grow.
Problems unsolved, it’s an overload.
Losing my mind right before I explode.

I said I’m foretold to be the truth.
Swear an oath, but it didn’t bare any roots.
At any given moment one could lose his youth. Don’t know who he is cause he wears another mans boots.  
Walking irritations, bearing all the earnings of their fruits.
Limits are escalating and I’m tarring down the roof.
A Course to deviation, unable to see any other routes .
  Blind to temptations.
The struggle fits me like a  suit.

Holding my breath so I can take control.
Feelings unrest, I can’t seem to grow.
Problems unsolved, it’s an overload.
Losing my mind right before I explode.

Time is deteriorating, everyday life of a destitute.  
 Waters are evaporating and I’m thirsty for whatever’s absolute.
Problems eternally materializing, full of sorrow and solitude.
Emptiness continuously multiplying, like a disease it pollutes.
Visions are tremendously horrifying, wishing to **** the sound and become a mute.
The story’s are ultimately glorifying, ghoulish torment and Chaos to distribute.
Nothing but hesitation.
Loneliness overtaking, going through all these hoops.
Screams are instantly mesmerizing, the ending is what They Pursue.

Holding my breath so I can take control.
Feelings unrest, I can’t seem to grow.
Problems unsolved, it’s an overload.
Losing my mind right before I explode.

Tormented life, struggles of troubled strife.
No delights when serving the dope pipe.
Fight for life at the end of the knife blood dribbles.
thoughts are cloudy and scribbled.
Mentally insane,
contemplating more self-inflicted pain.
Self-conscience remains.
Empty pockets empty brains.
Crepted invisible deceptive message makes all miserable.
manifested irritable,
cut throat on principle.
Need a death miracle.
My visions are endless.
My decision are critical.
Somebody end this.
Never to see a new day, Highly considerable.
Skin peeling served with blackening eyes,
as victims are screaming from scraping one vertebrae at a time.
Ripping out your spine.
Tormented elusion, negatively influencing and polluting my mind.
Life's worth losing when everyones out of line.

Passing looks across the room.
She takes a moment in despair.
Noticing me at once but dares not to share.
Telling herself in confidence theirs not a one who compares.
Speaking soft sweet desires in the gloomy nights air.
Most take no notice but I couldn’t help but to stare.
Odds stacked against me the games just isn’t so fare.
Wishing to caress her body while running my fingers through her hair.
Dreaming of lustful inquiries to long got me no where.
Moments lost in time forever one couldn’t care.
Once I accomplish my endeavors entirely only then her name I’ll declare.