Release the smoke inside my head
and I'll be on my way to bed
I will not dream enough tonight
awoken by the morning light
you're only here when I am gone
to keep the warmth we're built upon
But what is sleep when dark is day
and everything is not okay
I want to be alone with you
and watch the phases of the moon
The quiet sky can hear the beat
of broken hearts and tarried feet
I'll walk away from all of this
and find the home of nothingness
A body carries many things
but human's only part of it
So take my bones and bury them
a naked soul I can't defend
The more I think, the less I am
apologies become my hands
I'm sorry now, I always was
the sun is up for both of us

She raised her hands in hurry like the hackles on a dog
As everything repeated, disappeared into the fog
Another conversation turned to water with the air
And all of what she taught them wasn't present anywhere
She couldn't not remember when the past became today
The sum of what is hopeless and a place too far away
My sons will be my sons and even death cannot define
The battle I am fighting to restore their weary minds
And if I am alone inside a war I'll never win
I'll put my hands together and remain outside the skin
She'll never be forsaken by the thoughts that give her rest
The only thing a mother has, her sons to ever bless

**** the blood of envy
Boil it in pots
Tell me I am simple
tie me up in knots
Not another body
conquered by your cells
I will be tomorrows  
people never tell
Possible conclusions
you had never drawn
Where are all the colours?
everything is wrong
Bitten by a spider
gnawing at its web
We are not together
I could never tell

you're in my head, I let you in
as far as I have ever been
and what you seemed to recognize
was all a wall of lonely eyes
I never hid the way i am
but people seek a sleight of hand
and if they find a game to play
another lie becomes a day
create, destroy or let it be
as though you are a part of me
I can't forsake the thought of you
not even if I wanted to
so here it is, the edge of dawn
I wonder where we could've gone

I want to hear the voices you have harbored in your head
the very ones you talk to when the rest in you is dead
When sleeplessness's symptoms are the ones you want to share
with someone else's sorrows and the thoughts you cannot bear
But why is it so common for such things to fall apart
to make you then believe you could've never had a heart
I want to say the real is something different than we see
the cruelest of intentions we can lose upon our knees
And if you make the effort to unravel what was lost
you'll find the kind of solace you can place upon a cross  
Misunderstand the meaning and the battle is no more
you're left with only weakness that will drag you on the floor

the breeze in the trees hasn't found me today
and part of me wanted to keep it that way
I've hidden my body inside of myself
and all I can do is remain where I fell
but lying in ditches is tiring too
it causes my sadness to take me to you
I want to be certain before I give up
that what I am keeping is only enough
and pulling the wool over eyes I don't want
I'll gather apologies into my arms
I want to remember what you will forget
to change the beginning, we shouldn't have *met