Olga Valerevna

Olga Valerevna Sep 2014

So what is the extent to which you killed yourself today
That minor slight incision - did it carry you away
  And if it’s not the pain that makes your body like a drug
Then what is it that causes you to seek that kind of love
You thought it would be easy to detain what you could see
But something else has happened & your mind is not at ease
  I know you want the answers but they never seem to come
At least that’s what you think with all your patience going numb
And now the only remedy you seek is gone before
your limbs can ever feel it, ’til you’re lying on the floor
  Remember you were someone ‘fore you gave up on yourself
The kind of hope you carry’ll never leave you in your Hell

addictions to the s(k)in

#skin #knives #needles

Olga Valerevna Sep 2014

But do not lay a hand on her bones

When all the smoke exhales itself and leaves her breathing air
I beg your wretched fingers do unclench their tightened snare
The smallest kind of human be the finest one I know
And now that you have had your fill it's time to let her go
Control is something you can claim but only o'er yourself
your reach may travel far and wide but not to someone else
Today is gone, tomorrow leaves as quickly as it came
And even though the seasons break your heart remains the same
Remember what the world was like when she walked into yours
Although it's hard to see the way you did when she was born

for the father of a daughter

#hands #bones #lay

Olga Valerevna Sep 2014

The Ten

Lose* all your credibility and say youre still a man
you cant even remember what its like to understand
And everything you see is only partially complete
The rest will be revealed to you when gravity has ceased
But just before you float away from everything you had
Whatever you have stolen will be rightly taken back
And youll be left with nothing but the human you command
A heavy kind of feeling will begin to hold your hand

who you are and what you have to give

#ten #command

Olga Valerevna Sep 2014

Radicals & Rants

Tonight I want to speak until my voice does not exist
a word is only worth the breath a speaker gives to it
absorbed into a tongue where comprehension has a name
Where everyone is part of what makes all of us the same
and you can dot the eyes to keep the pressure in your head
The movement of the earth around the sun above your bed
But in the windy cities there is nothing you can do
To open up your lungs enough to permeate the truth
My teeth are falling out but I can mumble what I mean
The syllables enough to take this matter to extremes

what is universal

#words #tongues

Olga Valerevna Aug 2014

My aubergine dream

if we had our own vein in the place that we share
I think I'd give you my all
Although I'm uncertain of so many things
you are the grace in my fall
Not in the way that the people connote
Time an illusion to them
Deeper than indigo purple can go
I am the shade in your realm
Stop the mechanical hands that I hold
Tell me the cold is a dream
Tell me the taste would be bitter and stale
Skin cannot claim you and me

there's always a recipe for every kind of carnality when I don't feel like cooking

#you #me #carnality

Olga Valerevna Aug 2014

Spoken like ***

What is it that lingers
in the corners of your breath
Something like a cancer
or the things you never said
And if it is a tumor
do you know what you have grown
A burden of hypocrisy
for you to call your own
It's not about the masses
and the tissue you've destroyed
Those things become so trivial
the moment they're enjoyed
But that's when all the heaviness
begins to cut away
At every single part of what
you didn't stop to say
You want to know the answers
but forget to mind the time
And that is where the disconnect
begins to realign
The days that you are living and
the days that you have ceased
When night is like an enemy
that you yourself released
And you have hidden nothing, says
the terror in your voice
I guess you should've spoken like
a man who made a choice

#man #choice #made

Olga Valerevna Aug 2014

Hands & Feet

When everything is heavy but you cannot feel the
weight
You must've put the balances on someone else's
fate
And that was the beginning of the end that you will
see
A shallow recognition of the life you chose to
leave
It happens all too often, people give themselves
away
Accept the hands of others when they think they cannot
stay
But even if the truth puts reassurance in their
heads
The power they possess is like a prison for the
dead
Because you aren't walking and your feet are not your
own
You haven't the ability to set a different tone

for me, for those who give it all away

#hands #feet