im a violent downpour
And the sound of my voice is a lure
I'll invite you in,
so I can mess with your mind,
Because I'm tired of what's on mine
I'm damaged and damaging all at once

I'll uproot your home
And your family will always ask what happened
in the debris, you'll search for an answer.

A melody will still play in the wind,
And the sounds that run around will stick in your head
You'll wonder how you ended up with no love in your heart.

You'll wonder for years if you're ever going to recover
It's not smart to stay outside in the middle of a hurricane.
But you'll stay forever because you think you love the chaos.

Drowned in frustration
Aggressive, contagious
A single thought lights up my flame
I rip off these tears
Involuntary impatience
Shaking, I succumb to my rage

Broken sensations
Ferocious and anxious
Any moment can ignite every pain
I let out a scream
As these mad hallucinations
Push me right back into this cage

A lawless comet,
Galaxies curiously watch,
Cosmic boom alarms!

I loved you in ways I thought loving you was right
I gave you everything
I loved you for you
& you, filled with euphoria began to see the world much differently
You never stopped searching

You’re so beautiful and your lips are to be kissed
and your body is for you to love
but first you must love yourself
and I gave you everything because you never asked
I fell in love with not only you
I fell in love with it
It was Joy

and you understood, for you I love

No one ever tells you  that
Even in the happiest place on earth
You can still feel blue
That there are things you have to do as a person
To thine ownself be true
These things that  will help you grow
Like taking vitamins
To strengthen your bones
But sometimes you have to take the vitamins
That you find disgusting
No one tells you that
there will always be growing pains
And you wont always have enough medicine
Or a mom close enough to give you the grape flavored medicine not the cherry kind
sometimes it just hurts
Sometimes you just have to let it hurt
life will give you more than you can stomach
But when you consume good things
You will produce good things
But the opposite is also true
Even being surrounded by people
Thousands of people
You can feel alone
Because nothing,
I mean nothing
Is ever quite like home
And home is where the heart is
But right now mines far away
Making the best out of what i have
But feeling  low today
Sometimes you just need to be
Surrounded by people you love
And being a thousand miles away
Is difficult when push
Comes to shove.

i spent my entire life trying to run from myself,
but these days it's so hard to find myself.
i am out of my head,
becoming a blanket of red.
i am surrounded my caution tape.
and i can't distinguish love or hate

for now i'm high and flying well
it's only a matter of time before i walk through hell

When you think of me
how far do you think
when the idea of you and me
is placed on a map
waiting for territory to be marked

how far will you leave the permanence
to take up space that was once freedom
now shared
how many roads will be built
leading to us
if there will be any at all

think ahead for me
because thinking about forever
wouldn't be the same otherwise