For your eyes I fell,
And for your smile my heart skipped a beat for the very first time
I knew nothing but you just felt so right
Your eyes told stories
And your smile captured my heart
And never have I noticed an eye or a smile since my eyes met yours
Your image is carved in my mind and locked in my heart
Love it is or a curse
I still can't figure out

Avoiding you is all I can do
Cos my heart still aches
& my tears still flow
So start a new chapter?!
Hell no, the misery & the pain I still can't get through

We've gone different ways
But my heart abandoned me for you
And You can never know cos your heart is locked in your chest or God knows it stayed with whom

Living without you is all I'm willing to do
Even if it's all in life that I'm gonna do
My heart is not mine, but still I have my mind
And it's telling me not to ever trust you
So burn my soul? my pride refuse to
Not for you, not after what you made me go though

I love you, I still do
But Givin in to my weakness, I ain't gonna do
Not for the one who can hurt me most and not even have the tiniest clue....

-Pull me up or cut me loose
-but please don't leave me hanging bruised
-reaching no sky and reaching no ground
-I'm trying to climb, I'm trying with all I've got
-then I'm trying to cut the ropes with all what's left
-but still stuck
-swinging to the right, swinging to left
-I'm actually moving but hanging still
-I don't want to keep swinging
-I wanna end it but can't and won't, not actually even a choice
-Am I the only one hanging and stuck
-or are you all with me hanging from another top

Against the world, I'm willing to stand
Against it's darkness, I'm willing to burn to be its light
To its consistency, I'm gonna be the change
To its history I'm gonna be the reminder
To its wounds I'd be the remedy
To humanity I'm gonna be the wake up call
But not in vain I'm gonna live and die
So Raise the flag of humanity above the flag of your country
Or survive your existence miserably

-Who casted the spell that blinded the majority and cuffed the rest
-left us in an unexplained illusion that doesn't make the tiniest bit of sense
-livin a lie is what we do best
-Convincing ourselves that the future is inevitable while it's nothing but our own making
-playin some roles we think we're destined to perform
-Raising some empty slogans
-Speaking big deal of humanity that we gotta be ashamed of
-Of all the crimes we committed, funded or witnessed sayin nothing
-Even animals we made them suffer
-And our planet is gasping for help to survive
-then we blame life or God for our misery
While our biggest challenge was nothing but ourselves

-Wake up people, we are the problem
-We can end our misery, we can end suffering, wars and hunger
-we can fix what we've damaged and make a masterpiece out of its broken pieces
-Together we can redeem our mistakes and stop the injustice
-We can make the change
We seek and dream of  
-Against the current we must stand
Until we're strong enough to form our own
-Or  God help me I'd drown alone  gladly

.After you cry and cry
.And your tears go dry
.You don't know how you feel or what to say but you feel you'd rather die
.No matter what to do or what you try you still feel empty and cold inside
.there were a shock and tears then you went all calm
.you wonder what feeling you are about to sink inside
.you feel like you're drowning and  sharks attack  you after sharks but you won't die
.you claim you're good but you're telling a lie
.you wonder when all this will be over and so do I

My mind keeps me tormented
But I keep wearing a smile in public
Only an expression that I've learned and mastered
To avoid "what's wrong" and "what happened" questions
As unfortunately I don't have any of the answers
Or I don't wanna say them out loud in public
Not to see the look of pitty & concern on the faces of my friends & relatives
My mind keeps asking
Why are people fighting
Why do we spend money on weapons leaving people to die of hunger
Why have we divided ourselves and made it legal to **** one another for no purpose
For money, land, power or resources?
It's not only legal it's considered noble & courageous
Why do we always search for reasons to divide ourselves
It can be your color, your religion, your ***, your body or any other thing according to the trend
Why do we keep judging eachother with no purpose
Everday I fail to answer
what's my purpose
Why am I here, why do I have to go through life, why are people still giving birth
Why don't I  just end it?
With all these questions and wonders
I'll keep going hoping I'd find one day some closure and answers
Hoping my afterlife is my happily ever after