I'm not sure
whether I am more in love with the memories
or the actual you.

We weren't perfect
I gave you everything though
In order to grow
To make our love get bigger.


You made me happy
You formed the tears in my eyes
whether they were happy tears
or sad tears.

Mostly they were sad tears
But they will never overweight
the value of the happy thoughts
infinity happy thoughts I used to have

Now all I can think of
is you
not thinking of me
not missing me
not remembering what we had.

it was on a saturday night when I first saw you
a party filled with all kind of strange faces, friends and maybe enemies..

you told me I was special, a work of art with eyes that could tell a story
he wanted to know everything about me, it was scary yet warming..
what I adored in life and why, what made me cry, what made me smile

he wanted to know about the things I feared most, my demons, angels
the stories about how I always get way too drunk and the reasons why
the scars on my wrists and the tattoo on my back, like everything..

her darkness was bright like the moon and the stars in the sad sky
but she always shined like the sun, she was so full of life and beauty

it was just like the nights before, the music was smashing , it was loud
we had way too much alcohol in our veins more than was good for us
you were craving for my attention and there were moments I gave in..
he smiled this cheeky smile sweet but dangerous, my heart jumped
he was charming but oh so mysterious..

you were there in the club, in my mind and in my heart
and darling you looked so beautiful with the lights shining on you
and I was missing you so much even though you were next to me ..

I can hear your voice when Im laying in my bed, when its dark
oh baby I can hear your voice every where but I wanted his instead

I always heard you cry at night and I knew it always was because of me

maybe I do have a jet black heart.

I will never forget
The day you kissed my forehead
It was chilly outside
I was cold
And you kissed my forehead

In that moment I swear
I felt the fireworks everyone is talking about
I felt the butterflies in my stomach
And my knees got weak

I knew you will stay.
And you did stay
But only for a while
But long enough to make me fall in love
with the infinity galaxies in your mind

Now there is only void
In my heart
My aching poor heart
Waiting for you to come back
And fix me.

It's your fault
You made me question my worth.

It's your fault
I keep putting the pieces of me together
But you stole too many pieces
And I guess that's why
I will never get over you.

You stated my value
long before you knew me
You stated my value
when you met me
You made me lost my belief
That I was enough.

That can't be real love.

I think I met you in my dream
Your face was blurry
But I know your charming jaw line by heart
I know every curve of your body
I studied your body as a state of the art.

I saw you in the door
standing and waiting
you were screaming words I couldn't understand
and it reminded me of all the subliminal messages
when you and I were together.

I think I touched your hands in my sleep
But only to see myself distancing
moving away from you
But no
You were running away
just like you did two years ago
But that wasn't dream.