It wouldve been easy
Quick
Done
But I couldnt bring myself to do it
Not when its not only my emotions at stake

It'd be great if i wasnt on the verge of breaking down 24/7

Sick of being the ugly friend
Sick of being the friend noone cares about
Sick of being the friend that has to try because noone else makes an effort
Sick of trying to help but being taken for granted
Sick of being the friend that always walks on the grass
Sick of being the friend thats last to get invited
Sick of being the friend that gets mad fun of constantly
Sick of being the friend that gets chosen last
Sick of being the friend that gets walked all over

Sick of being
Ignored
Invisable
Talked over
Pushed away
Used

Because I can only take so much
Soon I wont even be your friend at all

But I guess you wouldnt even notice

I cant seem to keep my eyes off you

I hate you
Yet I like you
You're mean
you're selfish

And you couldnt care less about yourself
Let alone anyone else

You are
Dramatic
Mean
Weird
Loud
Annoying
Messed up
Selfish
Rude
Egotistical


Yet somehow I still find myself looking at you, smiling at you, waiting for you to arrive, wondering what your thinking and laughing at your jokes

Because even under all that
You are
Kind
Funny
Protective
Innocent
Caring
Talented
Different
Unique

I think thats why I cant seem to stop thinking about you

Because you annoy me yet make me laugh
Because you are unlike noone ive ever met
No matter how weird you are
You're my type of weird and even though I know I cant have you I'm akways going to care.
If you ever need me
Ill be there.

Take one for this
Take one for that
Your mind isnt in bliss
Yet as flat as a mat

You cant think clearly
Everythings in a blurr
I almost fainted nearly
I thought pills were meant to work?

Rush in
Rush out

My head is felt feeling dazed and confused
As though drugs are my only muse

Cant think
Cant write
Cant listen
Cant fight

Feeling like a vegetable
But people dont understand
Because to them
They just think its all in my mind.