Nicole Alexis: Poems

Nicole Alexis Mar 2015

I don't know where should I start,
But lately it's been tearing me apart.
I guess I should start by apologizing,
'Coz I might have caused you too much overthinking.

I hate fighting, especially with you.
You're my bestfriend and I hope we could get this through.

You mean a lot to me more than you'll ever know.
Despite of our differences, misunderstandings and petty fights, still, I will never let you go.

I could never stay mad at you for too long,
'Coz I know this friendship is just too strong.

I also hate the fact being this far away.
It's hard to reach out and express the things I want to say.

Even though I'm deeply hurt, I will choose to set that aside and stick by your side.

Whether you like it or not I'll always be here;
So please lend me your ear.

I am hoping by the time you finished reading this, all the good memories of ours, you'll reminisce.

You are irreplaceable Pauline and you are worth fighting for. I ran out of rhymes but who cares? I just want to let you know that right now.

I want you to open your heart and hear me out. Once and for all let's talk about this with a more calm and understanding heart. If you are willing and ready to listen, I'm just here waiting for your message to sort things out. I won't give up and neglect the person I value so much. Oh and yeah.. I miss you. :')

#love #peace #friendship #forgiveness #bestfriends #apology

Something to think about

Nicole Alexis Mar 2015

Something to think about

Living in this world is not easy
Trying to be someone I was never meant to be.
Sometimes life will hit you really hard to the point that you feel like almost giving up;
Only to discover that your character just needs to be developed.

Because your faith does not grow when everything is easy;
You need to fight for your faith daily.
Keep in mind that the strongest battles are given to God's strongest soldiers;
Just keep on trusting and I assure you He heard your prayers.

God will not waste anything you go through your life and He knows what He's doing;
Everytime you've overcome something difficult in your life, you are growing.

There's always a certain point in your life that you'll feel that you are lost.
But maybe it's not about finding yourself again,
But actually seeking God again.

#life #faith #battles #encouragement #heartcheck

Timing is Everything

Nicole Alexis Mar 2015

Timing is Everything

Have you ever found yourself in a situation that you met someone who has the potential to be your future life partner;
Only to find out that fate will separate you from each other.

It's like you can't do anything about it because after all,
Everything is out of our control.

Too much overthinking, our hearts are aching;
But some things can only be made known by waiting.

I know it could be tough,
But I'm praying we'll meet again soon enough.

Whether I would be a lover or even just a friend,
I'd still be happy as long as you're there 'till the end.

If you are really the one for me, you'll still be there when the time is right;
But now we can't go against fate and put up a fight.

All that's left for us to do is to surrender and leave it all up to the author of life;
And I know by growing apart we can still survive.

When love is real it won't be gone even if we can't be with each other or make a move right now;
Let's just wait until destiny can allow.

Wouldn't it be ironic if the same thing that set us apart...
Would also be the one that will bring us back together with a complete and more matured heart.

I have someone in mind when I made this. You know already who you are. :'>

#love #patience #emotions #distance #waiting #fate #timing

To the guy that left me hanging..

Nicole Alexis Mar 2015

To the guy that left me hanging..

I don't know what happened but things between us didn't work out
All the things you said before, I now started to doubt.
Things began to fall apart
All of a sudden reality just slaps you really hard.

Our love story was magical
But now it slowly turned dull.
We both agreed to take things slow
But now you said your love for me can no longer grow.
You were my lover and all,
But you left me stranded and it made me feel so small.

What happened to us?
Was there even an us?
Yes, I have shortcomings in the way I have treated you.
But was that enough reason to leave me out of the blue?
It's so easy for you to leave me without any explanation nor goodbyes
If only you could see the pain through my eyes.
You gave me so many false hopes
And now I'm trying to unstrangle all these ropes.

I was trying to convince myself that you left me for a good reason
But then again I was wrong and now I've learned my lesson.
You replaced me instantly,
I was hurt badly.
There's nothing I can do
Because somehow I already knew.

It's like I couldn't breathe and do anything
But I am so blessed that there was a King.
My Heavenly Father picked me up when I was down on my knees.
I'm so tired of taking over the wheel so I gave Him the keys.

This is for the guy in my past.
I already accepted the fact that we're not meant for each other, it's almost a year but I've realized the pain was still there, that's why I wanted to release everything right now by expressing it through words.
Just so you know I'm finally letting go all of the pain and I'm moving forward in my life right now. You are no longer allowed to be on my journey to happiness and to be on the next chapters of my life. :)

#love #emotions #letgo #letgod #stranded #falsehopes

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