I can't hold on,
I can't let go...
I keep on breathing
But each breath is suffocating.
My heart keeps pounding
But in my own blood,
I'm sinking.
I wanna hold on,
I wanna let go...
Smiling if I'm sad.
Frowning when I'm glad.
The past feels like a dream,
The future, a nightmare.
I'm not holding on,
I'm not letting go...
Here's the feeling I can't express:
There's a fret I can't suppress.
Words, thoughts
I've been screaming to you
Come back as whispers
Like I'm talking to my echo.
Tired of holding on,
Afraid of letting go...
I don't wanna die
But I keep on killing myself.
I need a reason to live.
I need the sun to wake me
From my restless sleep.
I can't hold on,
I can't let go...
Hands stuck in the solid air,
Standing on waters, crystal clear.
Hanging on to the nothingness,
Begging for help from the emptiness.
If I did hold on,
If I do let go...
If I fall deep into the sea,
I only wanted to see:
If I disappear,
Would anyone care?
Shed a single tear?
Pull me up here?
As the gravity drags me deeper...
As the light vanishes from my sight...
As the waters conceal my tears falling...
As I keep on holding on,
As I finally let go...
As I talk to my echo...
And drowning...
Written
11 September 2016
Revised
15 November 2018
Copyright
© Khayri R.R. Woulfe. All rights reserved.