the last time i was with you
there were blossoms falling 
softly to the ground
and the kindness in your eyes
was waning, too
when you finally saw me 
as i see myself 

dark nights in arcadia
at the holy mirror 
my dear, i used to think 
i had so much to give
oh god
but it was never true

my vision was blurry again and the music playing in my eyes felt intoxicating.
my chest felt heavy and it was hard to come back from these feelings that were pushing so very far away.
the music and his words danced around me,
i feel so so dizzy.
i closed my puffy eyes and i saw nothing,
i couldn't imagine your face anymore.

I miss kisses.
I miss the gentle meld of our body heat,
Soft sighs in the dark.
I miss late whispers
and hugs that make me forget.
I miss the laughs,
And casual word trade.
I miss your presence,
never an empty space.
I miss kissing you,
and forgetting everything else.

the
      moon
                   split
                             in half
and
        the
               stars
                        crumbled

falling
            falling
                        falling
                                    like
                                            fireworks
                                                               into
                                                                      the
                                                                            sea


the
     day
          my
               love
                      left
                            me.

and somehow i fell
but it wasn’t all at once.
it was slow and painful and beautiful,
and every time i closed my eyes i saw You.