Im tight..
my father breathing like a dragon
The heat you cant imagine
size of flames you couldn't fathom
In my atoms ;
my past lives itching to be free
I live past the last with crooked complacency
in the air..
My hands wave around i dont care
bout despair as i split like a dutch well aware
That they there...
older brother always watching
Controlling the unfolding of events while guns are cocking
for what
Killing put a limp up in they strut
glorified by the lies in the songs that you bump
Now its cool ;
to run around and act like a fool
Sending souls up to heaven pushin faces into stool
most will drool...
Over material and women ;
knives by your spine the inferior ascendin
Im dont spendin ;
my youth tryna court myself a lover..
Im dumpin my affection then they runnin like none other
i discovered ;
I could use the blades in me as weapons
instead i take em out nd show em off to warn my brethren..

The moon feels no jealousy,
Borrowing suns weaponry..
I wish my brothers would act the same..
Instead they look to crush you and take what you have gained,
Leave your legacy in tatters shattered as its maimed.
Forgetting what they'v done as they are basking in success..
Forgetting that they used to live in filth like all the rest..
Eating at my soul,
The constant griping pressure..
Of climbing up a hill,
To **** the king aggressor..
My brothers have all fallen,
Or maybe it just seems..
Like I'm the only one,
Who doesn't drink from streams..

You let me fall away,
Like trees who shed their leaves..
In dirt left to decay,
My savior was the breeze..

If you were attacked by fire breathing dragons what would you do..?

Dreams become reality through blood and tears that gradually, overwhelm your sanity. Dreams overtake Humanity.

Used to have a dream ;
used to have a love from above though it seemed
Serene
the color of your eyes hid the lies
The fog in the skies symbolized my demise..

No remorse
no affiliation
Federal's amphetamines ensue debilitation
at last ;
He had the heart of someone in his grasp
clutched too tight so it didn't really last...

Used to have a dream
used to being last
Used to being separated by my skin or cast
or both ;
Told his brothers not to give up hope
whoever is your god he or she will shift the *****..

Everybody aims to be the brightest shooting star
Instead of just the shoddy peace of driftwood that they are.

Same cycle
same lack of love and feeling
Lack of self worth in my character revealing
chase you round in circles
Iv fallen many times
my face inside the mud
I taste the **** and grime
wipe the dirt off fast
And catch up to my love
my gorgeous gift from heaven
My blessing from above

I wanna go back to the edo way of life,
Cutting with my blade every single source of strife.

Id like to feel the joy of some one loving

If there is a god i hope he made you for me
Beauty stretched across your temples land and sea..

I always wondered how this man could pass up such a bride,
A woman as entrancing as the sky is blue and wide.

I remember when the grass and trees had all showed me their face..
the moon had snarled as if it came from some far away edo place.
I adored it
Nature i explored it
Finding that the soul of everything had been distorted...
By man,
his hungry calloced hands.
Raking in the money...
Breaking in the land.
Smacking mother nature,
her kids forced to disband.
I wish i could've saved them
I wish i had the chance..

Lift a spliff in heaven
smoke it in hell ;
Feast for days inside the moments
i wasnt expelled ;
From your presence
your love
The gift you give us all ;
my angel i have fallen
I cant get past the wall.

Fate loves its **** daddy

A feast!
To say the very least,
Grand ol fans fold eating from the beast..
But who is really eaten?
Who is not mistaken?
Who will soon awaken?
The eaten aren't alive,
Only the living thrive
To maybe open third eyes...orr
Maybe not.
Majority of people like aesthetics that are not...
Pleasing to me i wander sadly in my mind as I'm unable to see,
Whats enthralling about money that is far from your possession.
Deep inside the being of a monsters thick intestines..
Deep inside the mind of brothers leaving you to die..
I ponder as to why nobody hears my angry cry..
Is it not ferocious?
Still too softly spoken?
Why do you not feel it?
The muddle of erosion..
The lack of conscious thought..
It seems it is on purpose
But still i see your caught.
Your brothers lie to you
They aren't really happy..
Money isn't joy..
Tis a shiesty ploy,
To keep your spanned attention
Within their false direction..

Walk with me children ^.^
Ill show you how to live.
Without bravado talk and pride that money loves to give..

Outlast all my troubles
my demons close behind ;
To get to the end where the light of heaven shines

Apparently im losing
apparently im lost
So viciously unfocused
i fall and pay the cost

Uncanny how they breach in
My pride was like a boat
its dawning several holes
to water im exposed
then drown..

My issues give me pounds on rearrival
lately hits to ego have me feeling small as Fievel..
I feel as though im lacking
or unfit for this girl ;
They tell me play the game
while cheaters run the world..

When they said
love is blind
That was not a lie
when i reached
Out to you
i shouldn't have tried

Tons of fish in water
the sharks will catch the slow
I wish i could be eaten
but life wont let me go

Your face does things to me,
My heart cannot contain.
You are so beautiful,
even if you don't agree.
You see so many so many flaws,
In you i cannot see.

Id rather be rich than poor
My mind asunder

Demons of life come with strife
Attempting to take over

As simple as resisting
All though they are persisting

To tear us all apart
I wish the hate would part

The rage will tranquilize you
It pierces like a dart

The stage will tantalize you
The beast will analyze you

And If theirs no realizing
Im sure they'll be much dieing

Im sure when theirs much crying
And brothers are far gone

That some will choose to stay
While wizened move along

If God created man
Then God created strife

Sometimes i wish that God
Would strip this land of life..

But thats just hateful thinking
My wishes unfulfilled..

Know nothing of the answer
The rage inside instilled..

You let me go like my lungs allow the smoke to float away. The sun didn't shine on any days you strayed away from me. For me, Our love could conquer everything. Fear in your heart left us dropping dirt on everything.

Eating well anticipated now i long for anything, anything you'd give me would so soothe me from this hemorrhaging. Nothing you will tell me will convince me of your reasoning, The love you let me have was like cold chicken no seasoning.

I learned to fly alone, you used to be my wings it stings cuz thoughts of you hit home. I grew my own alone and found a land where none discovered. I basked in Joy no love no ploy can take me from my brothers.

Frail human beings,
we look but cannot see.
Destroying all our land,
unchained but still unfree.
Frail human beings,
United we don't stand.
Instead we step on brothers,
to **** and then expand.
Frail human beings,
We touch but cannot feel.
The lasting consequences of the lives that we steal.
Frail human beings,
Enthralled in fame and wealth.
To acquire both would you sacrifice yourself?..

Hatred lust and anxiousness so we meet again, hatred saying nothing while my lust moves with the wind. Only after post disaster does my anxiousness attack, finding blades with finer points deep inside my back. I see the sun when time to run in fields with pens of sheep. Where wolves will hide in smaller prides to eat their flesh in sleep. All the love i had malformed to hate, inside my heart does ache, outside the spark is fate.

My friends are always here, cold or hot shoulder. His love was like the burden of a boulder on a cup holder.

Love too much? how does one do that? How did i love you so much that our enchantment flew back? how did I who wanted us high like the sky watch us die while you ascended without me i watch you fly.

My friends, mal or bueno you are here and i love you, you stayed without fear.

Spent his time gazing into space
depression has no weight nor a hight nor a face
Thinking of a place where he could nestle that was warm
growing quite familiar with his demons by the swarm
Invited them to eat with him as loneliness had grown
invited them to stay with him for empty was his home
Nothingness was common in the center of his flesh
issues were his homies bringing multitudes of stress
Feeling type inadequate among the happy folk
many saw these problems as a giggle or a joke.

I often found you more addictive when i was poisioned from loneliness..

if i rip my heart out will you keep it..

People go
adjust to the flow
If they come back
to stay
Their in the way

Its hard to love an Enigma who was never there for you. When your soul is often starving but you can't forage for food your left alone. Faith is believing in hocus pocus for the self deceiving comfort that someone's watching you breathing.

No ones watching you **** air in despair, in your soul is everything meaning everything's there. Why feel alone, your alive here to thrive. synthesized uniquely with your own shuck and jive.

Allow your mind to be the fortress that you want it to be, from the top you look for demons who are longing to see. The inner workings of your masterpiece they'll want you to flee, as they tear the insides down as fee for hiding from the.

Even in your weaker moments, try to draw your blade, sharpen it and hone it. **** your demons with it you'll feel better than before, free from mental tyranny But FED screams never more.

Money is important
the cheddar in trap
Extending hungry hands
To feel the metal clap
The cat is laughing now
It watched you from the start
From thought to full extension
till wrist and arm and did part

Money is important
It gives the evil power
To keep the people poor
For more we fiend and scour
My mother said to me
I wish we could be free
I wish that i could help
I hope the demons flee..

Wishes for a god
some feel but cannot see
I have inside much hate
For her or it or he
I feel i was forsaken
My knees sore from the ground
Untouched by holy presence
that many call profound..

When time is like a blade
that cuts you every second
Your skin becomes like rock
Your mind becomes a weapon
When fed is like a crook
Who takes from you till death
You hate him every second
Your curse with every breathe..

Bummed
picking up the crumbs
People grown numb
all craving green thumbs
No one is abundant as the fed who sits atop
the heaping pile of people who are slowly reaping crops

Separated
wrongly legislated
Segregate and weaken
before unties peaking
Some will see the lies
others live their lives
Without batting eyes
toward a kins demise

Another one who's babbling of peace and unity
cumbersome is life when your unchained untruly free
My eyes were tightly shut
but even then i felt
As if the cards at hand
where incorrect when dealt..

Chasing the alluring
everyones a hunter
Until you are down under
and can no longer plunder ;
Vast
the shadow from the light that you had cast
I felt the cool inside and hoped our days would never pass
green grass didn't seem to help too much
Grey clouds danced in the skies in the clutch ;
aloud
I failed
i let my people down
Drowned beneath my sorrows
i couldn't make a sound.

I heard
the lord did nothing for a loser
Why create me a shoddy willed drug abuser ;
used to watch when small as the sun rise and fall
Now i sit inside but cant escape the fiery ball
crippled by depression
My weapon is my mind
so of-course it figures
into it devils grind ;
Their paws
the people clapped their hands and show applause
When another brother who mislabeled is in gauss  
quick to point the finger
"Muslims are the enemy"
"evil white oppressor"
Aren't we all the same
the only standing difference
Is skin color and name..

I heard ;
that dog eat dog was never the way
As if people were at peace before on some later date
planned on bringing wood to burn
To reset that fire ;
till i grew to know my brothers and became uninspired..
My heart is often shriveled
anxiety derailing
As if before i start i slip and fall already failing
i heard that god was evil
He basked in the light
if you questioned his work
you were cast in the night
I would sit in the trees
when the sun's feeling down
As i spoke to the moon
with my feet off the ground.

Why chase after people
they drop you when your heavy
Inside overflowing
its broken through the levee
Lonely
distraught
Why should i try
feels better when i lie
Wishing i could die
eyes to the skies
Nature talking wise
don't always understand
Though ears are open wide..
most days im like..
*******  everything
humanity concerned with making money over everything
I probly wont be happy even when iv obtained everything
walking towards success is tiresome my insides hemorrhaging..
On the days i wanna live
i have so much of it..
So much love to give
it oozes out my mouth
But no one hears me out
i feel too weak to shout
Theres too much oozing **out

Everybody's trying to be appealing
As heaven
As love
As money
As trust
As ***
Im stressed
This test
Of life
Has me
A mess

Is it selfish to long for what one needs
Id hate to be labled by lust
And greed

Am i stupid for falling in love again
It feels like it
I dont like it

In a situation where the troll under the bridge is armed, the riddle being difficult as a bomb to disarm. You wonder why your journey has lead you here to this place. Why do we exist who created the human race? No one has the answer, i really need to get by.

The troll accepts no money..he has a lazy eye. His beard hairs shaggy green..his eye looks at the sky. The other very focused..it stares me in the face. His frown is very mean..i feel so out of place. His blade tight in his hand..his eye still looks at space. I offered him a joint..He let me leave this place.

Im walking from the bridge, into the dragons lair. If i take its head at home a hero I'm declared. Brave the flames for honor, Brave the flames for money. I died to please my brothers, If only they had loved me.

Usually asleep when the sun says hi ,
most times high when the sun says bye.
Lost a couple brothers
i often wondered why ,
while crushed beneath depression under clouds in the sky..
Picked a couple flowers
they wilted in his hands.
While walking through the valley that was sadly ***** by man.

Used to scream when i got stabbed in the back
when their weren't many blades to show i had been attacked
Living for the future got me feeling ****** in the moment
looking back it seems as though iv been my toughest opponent
Love is often in my mind alike to swimming from sharks
overjoyed if you make it
But you'll most likely die
as the current is vicious
Where the predator thrives
am i ***** for staying
Where my strings aren't tied..
used to scream when i got stabbed in the back
Now i use the knives they left me for revenge i exact ;
a homie had once told me i should dig up two graves
When im getting one back
for the pain that they gave..

Some brothers step on other siblings to survive
Morals fall to dirt like the raindrops from the skys
Unseen and left unfelt they sit and rot with hate and vengeance
Longing for the day they gain revenge with their ascendance
Peace is never felt when family leaves family in pieces
Strongest of the strong crippled as money is their weakness
What if someone stepped on the faces of those you eat with
Would you draw your blade?
Would you slice away until their soul is slain and caved?
Would you jump for joy as a mother has lost their child?
Returning home with blood on your body from actions vile..

Not a good look
Staring at the clouds
Demons in the shade
Evade in smokey shroud
I see them all the time
They don't attack out loud
Their tactics soaked in grime
They make their brothers proud
The speed is not sublime
He could've saw it coming
Too focused on his needs
Blades soaked in blood
Brothers possessed by greed..

It seems i cant escape
sleep would overtake wake and still it devastates
Depression ;
crushes me with marvelous aggression
Feast for the beast find me deep in its digestion...

Never did i see
the sun shine on me as i sat beneath a tree
Shady ;
victory thrown like Tom brady
Pride chopped off like umbilical on babys...

Lazy summer days
sorrow acrobatic
It set his mind a blaze  
tryed to find comfort in a sister softer soul
Left his heart contorted
for every bridge a toll
I guess ;
usually he'd cross and watch it burn  
Trying very hard to not forget the lessons learned..

The way i feel inside does not match my expression

There was this kid in college
pursuing his growth with knowledge
Towards elders he payed his homage
although troubled inside ;

Everyday after classes
fraternities caught em slackin
They told em he should be packin
he should not hold no pride ;

He questioned why they aint like em
they beat em and tried to sike em
Quit often at school he's frightened
out his mind he would go ;

After he called his master
jehovah many don't know off
The holy among the holies  
he would cry for his help ;

Why do you let them do this
they ruthless
Beating me toothless
he knew this but he said nothing
It was all in his plan ;

Walking from class and thinking
he saw em tried to avoid em
They followed to leave em hollow
he was angry inside ;

They smacked em
about the action
One had a bat and swung it
they took his bag and they flung it
He type wanted to die ;

Now months had passed he was enduring the stress
grades declining
Sorrow climbing
wasn't doin his best

Oh how could he achieve
soar and reach for his dreams
When these ******* kept him under
forced a trick up his sleeve ;

It was sunny-
he was bummy as he usually was
He approached em after class
they where they usually was
They had laughed in his face ;
called em broke and a ******
Wasn't laughing for long
since he pulled out the matic ;

Sporadic they started movin
the fear in they faces soothin
He told em you try to run
im puttin lead in you all ;
One pushes his homie forward
while falling hes contemplating
Debating why they had caused this
bullets fly out the gun ;
He wet up the one who fell
they others had tried to scatter
A marksmen right at that moment
he had aimed for they heads ;

Laughing while he had killed em
four out of the five had fallen
The last of em slowly crawling
he walked up to him fast ;
Crouching he looked right at em
he pleaded we were just joking
Fun poking he said he's sorry
Jacob laughed in his face

Last of the fallen bullies
was crying as he was dieing
Delighted the bummy murderer put two in his brain ;

He said look at you now
i will not be destroyed
By the likes of you all
the police had been called ;

The sirens he heard em comin
he figured no sense in runnin
Since god had never responded
**** this life aint my own ;

His eyes had looked upward gazing
he felt his sorrow degrading
Visions of success fading as he let himself go ;

With the gun to his head
tried to finish himself
Heard it click several times
their were no bullets left ;

Now the cops are arriving
his heart was dropping and diving
His bravery was comprising of the bullets he had ;
figured jail was no option
They'd **** em
he couldn't stop em
So thinking quickly decided he would die by the ops ;

Their screaming telling him freeze
no time for buckling knees
He bolted headfirst at cruisers screaming top of his lungs ;

The officers open fire
fulfilling desperate desires
His soul would have raised higher had he tried something else ;

Now wet up he couldn't get up
but happy free from his burdens
His parents died long ago so he had no real regrets ;

DMT danced inside him
it took him to early childhood
Remembered when his parents had been loving him so ;

Toward fire he was descending
escaping is now pretending
While burning he saw the bullies he had sent to this place ;

While tortured they chained together
their skin was hanging and tethered
No laughing no getting over what his life had become ;

No resolve but the truth  
their was no going back
If your seeking revenge
you should prolly relax..

Clouds remind me of myself..Always high when you see them..

Clear skies
straight out the woods
Birds will advocated for joy
its misunderstood

I dig deep
deep..
deep down inside
Pull out everything i felt for you and toss it aside

Watch my heart decompose
watch the sun rise again
Watch the leaves flutter down
wish to die yet again
Angels blessing my mind
devils clutching my spine
Iv been running forever
but their always behind
Air adorning the lands  
curse the gods for this grievance
As you slip through my hands..

Heat dwelled in her eyes
It only came out when
She left him all alone
And stopped playing pretend

Still living your dream
though you seem unhappy
Was this all unwanted ?
why your words attacked me ?
I had ate what you gave me
there was no other choice
You would bless me with food
and my stomach rejoiced
Growing older around you
it was hard not to see
You created us three
but were no longer free
Chains adorning your body
me my sister and i
You were bound when you made us
you'll be bound till you die.

I shouldn't have allowed
your lack of care and love
to change the way i am
deranged from push and shove

What is given often lost,
For love is always starving.
You lose what you put in,
Feel frail as she's departing.
Am i to love again?
And lose another arm..
Anxiety, depression,
These feelings left unharmed.
When trust has taken blows,
Only you can heal yourself..
When love does come along,
please don't take from someone else.

Seeds will plant with actions,
Reactions are the trees.
That manifest and grow
From charity or ******.
Is your land left gorgeous?
Or dieing in the breeze?
Will you over come?
Or will you die with ease..

When i meditate my demons sit and laugh
at least they acknowledge my existence
I fell in love for nada
the pain has helped me grow ;
Numb
and cold
It iced
my soul
Its cool
id rather live as minced and severed flesh
Than handing you my love and in return receiving stress
forsake me
Ditest me
leave me here to die
Id rather cut myself than let you slice me open wide

With a kiss a soul absorbed
A touch completely healing
I told you all my faults
My scars i am revealing
I set my pain aside
You understand the feeling

Of being tossed aside
Like a shody tool
Or **** you had to hide
Descend a sloppy fool
For you had sent me down
A thousand flights of stairs
as i was unprepared when you said you didn't care