You learn to not hold grudges for those who left you longing love
Only after going through the pain of being unrequited
Later you must act is if the hand behind the blade..
is unindicted
The love that remains inside your soul has not decided
If you should **** the rest of your feelings
I mean...their unrequited..

Life is butthead.

I sleep with the light on, reminds me of you.

Used to be lilies in your eyes
Now they ring a bell of hate

I remember calling you dearly but still you perpetrate..
Love is a cloak and dagger type of thing..
Apparently..

The cloak will smell of roses..
And not of casualties..

The knife is sharp..
Sharp as it can be
Accessing the places those unbonded couldn't see..

Taking from the tree without intentions to eat..
Draining me of love
so love i can't repeat..

Will you be empowered or devoured by the madness?
The victor rights his story while the loser basks in sadness,
Keep your homies closer, closer then before.
Who knows whats to come, deaths an open door.

I hope i was the only one
going into love
Thinking it'd be fun ;
excuse me
For those many moments i was loopy
scribbling my hatred into notebooks and looseleaf..
Eyes covered well
excited by your voice
Following your smell
i threw away my shell
To keep up with the pace
but then you said farewell
As far as i could tell..

Friends dip off
Guess they wasn't homies
dont be comin back and actin cool as if you know me
Unholy
I swear to god y'all ****** make it hard
fearing letting others slip up underneath my guard
God;
i pray that you would give me all the strength
I pray that you would work me through my troubles like a shrink
to think;
I valued your existence as a gem
To think that you would label me another one of them
Its cool;
As if i could play karma for a fool
i did the same to others used my brother as a tool...

Used to think that i would know y'all forever
used to bank on y'all whenever my depression would sever
Used to be my crutches when i lacked the muscle to walk
back when devils stalked my being mind outlined in chalk...

I wish y'all the best
i still harbor all the love that i once held in my chest
i revoke you from that special place inside of my mind
the area my most ambitious demons struggle to find..

Flowers growing in my heart..Bees will make love to their faces. Empty spaces in my chest iv yet to find  replacements...Something in your aura, foreshadowing adjacency from blazing loves euphoria.

The birds would sing about her, The trees were always watching, I often dreamed about her, until my blood was splotching..

Babe ;
I don't call her that cuz she's not mine..

Love is like a riddle,
It leaves you open wide..
Tryna to figure out what you should and should not hide.
More so at the end,
When no one can pretend..
What if's plague your mind,
like sorrow plagues the poor..
you do not ask for less,
you always long for more..

Everybody wants to be the greatest
The pressure on the lesser has us aching to be weightless
Some are quit indifferent
They fight until they die
Others go through life never questioning why

Coming down frown the clouds but im not a deity  
let these monkeys of my back they make a mess exceedingly;
He was tryna get ready
They spin ya mind in circles like the fork in the spaghetti;
Leading kids astray nowadays like the piper
Foolish if you feeling condescending cuz your skins lighter

He often dreamed of a place
Where status wasn't governed by your money or your ''race''
Where humans left their gripes in the dirt with the dead
Instead of slicing brothers throats to eat and get ahead

M a y b e..
i learned to hate that word
You want no strings attatched
so kick me to the curb
No ?..
wanna see where things will go ?  
Unless of course somebody follows through and steals the show
maybe..
I swear i hate that word
its tears apart the fibers forming love that i had slurred
I understand your movements
to keep yourself a float
You hang me off the side
i dont fit in the boat
I noticed theres some holes
i see them from below
You aren't in control
go on and let me go

Pressure in the ses pool..
Relax my child unwind..
I hope you wish to climb,
For the larger wish to dine.
They season you with hate..
Mix you with dillusions..
So no one really knows..a viable solution..

Lonely filthy mind
it didn't match his body
My body's age behind
i cant
Restrain
the hate you make me feel
People are like mirrors
my true self is revealed
You choose someone to love
and give them all you can
If they do not choose you
you feel alone again.

So im told
stay within the mold
Disobey the old
following the young
Sprung..
eating all the fruit
Nature's very giving
humans are obtuse
Dispute
wether
We are ''liberating''
killing them for killing
It's quite debilitating
To watch
blood filled socks  
Negative experience
need to detox ;
I dont ******* care
about your **** or ***
Your soul is pretty foul
the *** ill always pass
Id rather have l o v e..

Longing for the touch of the wind and the leaves, hearing all the woes of the birds and the trees. The wind speaks wisdom...all across the lands,Those who'v never heard it...would not ever understand.

Id like to take your hand, show you that the grass is just as green in other lands. Flowers only grow if sunlight radiates in air, Sunlight only radiates if clouds will let him by. The wind will intervene and the let the rays flow through the sky.

I embody an eclipse since the day i lost the ability to kiss your lips. You were my shining sun, I played the roll of moon. You helped me glisten bright..until we reached our doom.

Sometimes i don't belong in my skin
depression would have me aching while i held it within ;  
While wishing he had somebody
somebody who could destroy this
He let his sadness take over like how devils posses..

I really do belong in my skin
love would have me cursing at the heavens above
Many would **** their brother
like abel and cain ;
He'd show love to one another
the sisters the sons and mothers
Only way of escaping inescapable pain..

I wish i could belong in my skin
body cold like heavy snow all-though he's warmer within ;
While wishing he had somebody
somebody who he could cuddle
Somebody who'd help rebuttal devils talking to him;
he gave up.

Some of me wants to scream
most of me wants to die
Devils climbing like monkeys
tearing all at my spine
Try to leave em behind
chasing after divine
When i wake from my rest
devils infest my mind
I heard existence is pain
i heard pain makes you strong
My lack of patience is ******
this narrow road is too long
To keep you my pride was tucked
draining myself of luck
Raining such heavy drops
straining in mud im stuck
Shallow is not the muck
screaming out what the ****
Breaking my housing walls
heading depressions call
Shaking the tree for fruit
waiting for some to fall
All of the fruit was rotten
by mistorturne im mauled.

Living where my mother be
inside america the land of infinite discovery
Utterly
shaken by words the prez is uttering
Bludgeoning the labeled "foreigners" for their said struggling..
i see your ways
Its usually quit disgusting
Grab em by the twuat you will get got and thats for sure
unpure
I hope that soon we get see some gore
i prey that you decay your toupee through the air will soar
Unsure ;
are yall the people which i should be blaming
You asked for this destruction now you ******* and complaining
god ;
How many claim to see through the facade
yet sit and watch their brothers getting buttered by the odds..

He spent his days searching for a place where he could be,
found solace in a tree tall adjacently
What am i to do, iv long lost track of time
As im looking down, the ground i cannot find
You yourself have chosen , i wish that it was me..
But holding something down simply means it isnt free..
Unsure of what to do, residing in your branches
Ions from the ground , miles away from answers.

I didnt need a lesson
on how to stand alone
I needed you to stay and be my comfort
my home
My zone
is shaken
I should
awaken
I was
mistaken
I feel
forsaken
Its nada
dog eat dog
Everyman for himself
depending on your friends can be bad for your health

I bear little fruit
so your seed was a waste
Running out of excuses
running as monkeys chase
2nd face talking ****
Though we all have a few
rinse the smell of defeat
Rise again feeling new

I step foot in the lobby
i was just in my bed
Moon ascended up high
devils touching my head
I was sleeping in sweats
but in here im well dressed ;
**** is awfully odd
everyone looks at peace
All awaiting the call
to descend to the beast
Elevator comes down
people cramming inside
Some were not dressed as nice
and the doorman aint right ;
I think now i remember
i had wished death upon me ;
Sorry satan you mistaken i was speaking to Kami
try to leave from this place
I dont know how i came
elevator comes down
In my mind pouring rain ;
i get shoved in the box
Hits the bottom in seconds
as the doors open wide
sort of struggling in shock
i had shut both my eyes ;
when i opened them wide
I was still in my bed
sun ascended up high
Devils touching my head

I stayed away from fire
i watched my brothers burn
I waited in the trees
until it was my turn
Success is often yearned
the opposite of failure
Eating at each other
to see which ones are braver
Never did i cater
to devils on my spine
they crawl upon my back
Attempt to touch my mind
divine ;
I clawed my way to see you all the time
love is not for me adjacency to lust is blind
Clinging to the one who made me feel like she was mine
expectations high only to die inside confined ;
You wanted something greater
you swore that things were pure  
Instead she stabbed your back ;
then showed you to the door..

Used to being down ;
not used to smelling **** piles close to the ground
Its funny
cuz usually i find their hand and hand
Fragile as the castle that you firmly built from sand ;
outside rigid like the horn of a rhino
Always wit Marry never really was a whino
sitting in the trees as he watched his brothers time fold
Eyes closed during violations of his minds home...

Tryna set my devils free
all though it seems without em i would not exist as me
Hands in the air like im looking for the savior
my chains are invisible affecting my behavior
Eating very little as it hasn't been my nature
struggling to find a better suiting nomenclature..

My days go by so slowly, when I'm far from you. But your never here and my time is mine to lose. Id spend it all on you..if only you would let me. I throw it all away until my soul is dry and empty.

The rain will lecture so, It speaks of how when falling you should just go with the flow. When the ground is felt you will open up your eyes, Realizing each mistake that you had made when you were high.

Slowly coming to, My brain is growing rapidly i owe it all to you. My heart is bleeding rapidly i owe it all to you. The winds will sometimes laugh at me I'm laughing at them too. My face traversing journeys that would leave it far from blue. Im very far from you.

Once believed in love
the language of the trees
Feeling incandescent
your presence a disease
Care only a little
don't over fill the cup
For then the structure withers  
and everything is ******
Your formula is rigid
the way you love is odd
It ***** i cant agree
or settle so that we
Could be..

When there is nothing there was something there before. When someone comes and goes it leaves you longing something more. People die inside each others hearts quite often. You died in mine, why is love so hard to find?

You open up your heart While your other looks inside, She tells you what she likes and all the traits that you should hide. Butterflies oozing..out of my throat , Fire dancing..out of my eyes. Sorrow stretching like blue in the skys..I once was unsure but iv opened my eyes.

My heart is mine to cherish. My heart is no one else's. My heart is mine to hold..Love feels far too old, I'm growing tired of it. Detaching all my strings..like the birds one day my heart may sing. If only you would wrap around my finger like a ring.

All my feeling had been shoved in the ground ,
all though then i could not taste a hint of love to be found.
Birds and bees , figs and berries ,
Shepherds and lambs ,
Eating what is fed to them from palms of westerners hands..
Some will be articulate in representing their fam ,
Others get disrespected tryna survive amongst man..

If life was like the sea i would be floating with ease ,
when your figure heads a puppet mason highest degree..
I wish to hold the Sun so i can no longer see -
this evil that protrudes and eats the soul out of me...
Funny how we judge or kin as if our flaws were never there.
America will step on you as if you weren't there.
This way of shiest is in our blood as if we never cared ,
Hyenas deep they jump the lions life was never fair..

Feds progress and death will meet in the middle
like how the bow touches the string when you be playin the fiddle.
Or maybe how your faces touch when you be locking your lips.
I hope Mj  up in heaven screaming rockin his hips.
I hope Martin luther is speakin bout dreams that he lived ,
Ideas of peace cannot sustain the the change from pain that we give..

Open like the ocean,
I let you walk inside..
You didn't wipe your feet,
and left stains on my pride..

Lack of determination
Forced starvation mentally
Perpetuate the cycle
Kept in chains essentially
Non visible to eyes
The plan that they'v devised
Is far above the skys
Look up at your demise.

Trained to lust and starve
This time the fields are different
No wounds from picking peaches
No severing of arms
Chickens without heads
unknowing of the farms
how can you pick up arms
with no sense of alarm?

Slowly losing faith
I know i should be patient
Pushing love away
I know im far from gracious
i do not judge the fall
or victims of the struggle  
death will speak to yours
theres no time to rebuttal.

Born into a hustle
Formed from vicious greed
Founded on the dead
Depriving weak of needs
All these thirds are closed
Their eyes kept on the prize
The prize is on a string
Youll never reach the lies.

Swept off my feet into a bed of ******* spikes

Level one hyenas,
Together in a pack.
Your pride is in the open,
Together they attack.
About 25..to 35..or more,
regardless of the winner someones death is soon in store.

You don't enjoy the pain,
So why cause it to others?
You know where all the same,
All sisters and brothers .
But still we hunt and ****,
Instead of love each other..

My days are often rapid.
Moving much to fast for me to counteract and catch it.
I-t being  joy of marrying my clarity,
Instead perpetuate the cycle of recycled savagery..

Level one hyenas,
Laughing after battle.
They captured all their prey,
But left the kinlings rattled.
To grow up on their own,
One day they'll have their moment.
Like cattle to us humans,
Meat is a main component.

A man who shines fine
His Being very prime
Adored by all his friends
No matter what the time
When you do go away
I feel so led astray
Like watching sunsets die
You fall and i know why..

Some slip away, if you try to grip them. implying that you shouldn't have or else they wouldn't slip in..a world without you. Todays another day, Another day for sorrow. Let it full your lungs, exhale when your in pain. Breathe in when you are over and encumbered by the strain. Sorrow is the light that may lead you to the day, when you are motivated to rise and not let yourself decay.

They say if you dont love your brother your no child of god
i found myself chasing the being that had made me odd
fumbling along the way because the path is skinny
I wish for more every day as if i was Timmy

I know constantly you watched me let you down
distract myself with nonsense while my soul drags on the ground..
Getting high to run from my depression
Its gotten good at climbing without question;
I learned my lesson

If you would have asked me bout my purpose long ago
I sure wouldn't have said it was to save my brothers souls
I probably would have said to live and die another man
not to place the peace and love inside my brothers hands

Im tryna to be more loving
I feel it from above
olive branch clasped in the toes of a dove
I used to hate so much
I let it rot my core
No longer in my temple
I wish to hate no more..

My body feels like air
In large bodys of water
My mind feels like a rock
Inside a flock of sheep
My hands in dirt to reap
The seeds the ground did keep
I planted them so now
I rip them out the ground

Seedlings turn to trees
Light transforms to dark
I smell it in the breeze
Like couples on the ark
In large bodys of water
We sit light as the dark
I had you by my side
Destined for more than sharks
you jumped ship drowned and died
I watch them eat you up
I feel the heat inside

Waiting for your pain to wane away,
longing for the touch of love to make it all decay.
Dreaming of a place where grass is green on every side,
Visiting this place when you are weak and need to hide..
I know of such a land,
the water pure as god.
My toes had clutched the sand,
I sometimes found it odd.
That every time I'm here,
I love being alone..
But when I'm in the world,
i do not feel at home..

Your mind is a mountain i wish i could climb
Your eyes are like water i wish i could drink
Your soul is so pure
No one set to taint it
Im given the chance
With pain I'm aquatinted

You were so cool though
I never thought id feel at home
Being left alone to suffer
Love was lost again
Start looking for another
To find that it is pointless
Searching for the one
Who puts you in the sky
To blaze just like the sun

You'll find your flame short-lived
You'll find that you are falling
Not deeper in love
To dirt where bugs are crawling
You hit the ground and live
Get up and can't walk
But still have love to give

Sit with broken legs, or maybe get some pegs
You'll have a better look
For turning females heads

Then you'll find the one
Then you'll find your lover
Just you your love and pegs
Dissolving in each other

Always under siege,
my body and my mind.
Chakra has been blocked,
for long amounts of time.
Love is like the clouds,
Admired from afar.
Everyone sees something,
thats unlike what they are.

I learned when i ascended,
into the baron sky.
Expecting lots of clouds,
but none where flying by.
Without a cushioned seat,
i fall down and repeat.
The same recovery,
from past discovery..

I wish you weren't so perfect..
so beautiful that losing everything seems like its worth it..

Love is a violation of my personal space , *******.

Like black fabric
Adorned in lint and fuzz
Your impurity is shown in the light
Like a nocturnal mammal
You feed in the night
consistently your prey
I provide you with your supper
A platter silver plated
Degraded as your ******..
Maybe thats why iv recently found joy in the pain
a tolerance for dégradation
The void is the same..
opportunities to pick myself a slightly wilted flower
To love that thing forever as if it was at full power
Looking past the imperfection that is all but pretty
Unless you do enjoy the thorns that mad your hands all gritty..

We always settle
Perfection isn't real
you love what you are given
Accept the best of deals
Not wondering what if there was something a lot greater
For that would tear apart whats in your hands
now or later..

I loved you so obnoxious blossoming petals
oh how blindly i focused
Eyes neglecting your thorns ;
it was easy to forget that i was worth quite the same
It was harder to remember from which door i had came
i would clutch you in my palms and hold you close to my nose
Now my hands have some holes ;
and my blood is exposed...

I loved you so obnoxious blossoming petals
oh how happy you made me
Whiffs of joy killed dispair ;
it was easy to forget that i was still on my own
No one actually there
no one entered my zone...
No one really has possession of others
this idea is alluding
Ties your heart in a knot
are these devils intruding
Were they always around ?
watching as i withstand
To push my face in the ground..

Delicate as you were our love was cast away like wilson. I ate the fruit and basked in joy as ploys were set to feel some, kind of arbitrary. The way we rose to crash and fall was quite unnecessary.  Your soul infests me barely.

It used to make me whole, Used to sooth my mind. Used to to pay no tolls, Used to have you here. Used to have no fear, I used to love you endlessly and now the end is here.

Never thought we'd die. My mind was always lost because your presence got me high, My shine was always tossed because id rather be in yours. I loved you like iv never loved anyone before.

You open up your doors
she takes a step inside
Shell marvel at the floors
shell ogle at the size
I gave this one a tour ;
more extensive than others
I let her into places
that no one else discovered
I opened up my mind
i let you touch my soul
I craved to breathe your air
you presence made me whole
But now the times have changed

I wouldn't let the masses
inside my gracious home
I see your open house
is quite unlike my own
These floors reserved for you
your palace would await
Until my world collapsed
as earth began to shake

My doors were much to open
i should have kept them closed
Inclined to let you stay
my heart is not my own

Open up your ears as Superiors move their lips
Their tongues coated in wet lies
Weapons on their hips
Weapons can be lips
Please don't be mistaken
So many are already
Too far to be awakened

Holding you close with your lips against mine, is an ecstasy i haven't felt in a while.

Nobody cares bout your heart ache
start making money
Walkin round town folks
looking at me funny ;
No practical skills
not a lawyer or a genius but..
I can tell you how it feels
in multitudes of ways
To not wanna be real
to want to fade away ;
I can show you how
my inner being drowned
From being in this town
from staying on the ground ;
Everyones an alpha dog
always looking down ;
Never eat the scraps
just leave them on the ground ;
I often danced to sounds
like no one was around
To noise they couldn't hear
till no one was around..