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 Oct 2018 myjessi
Mari
Worthless
 Oct 2018 myjessi
Mari
My heart feels like
it's about to shut down
from all the truths
that only I know

People view me
as kind
selfless
heartfelt
with empathy

Yet once they witness
my darker side
this inner demon
that is always
a few steps behind me

Once they see
the ashes and smeared blood
tainted within my mind and heart

I am once again alone
alone to pick up the pieces 
of a love that never was
 Oct 2018 myjessi
Virtuous
Don't tell me I'm pretty
Tell me that I'm passionate
That I have drive
Tell me that I make you laugh
That I know how to make your day better
Don't tell me I seem nice
Tell me that I'm kind and compassionate
Tell me that I'm not afraid to dream and to dream big
Don't tell me I'm perfect
Tell me the you love me despite my flaws
That you want to spend the rest of your life with me
Don't tell me I'm beautiful
Tell me that you'll be faithful and forever true
 Oct 2018 myjessi
Myrrdin
Truth is not beautiful
When spoken without thought
This was not a treasure chest
I held the key for
Rather one I found propped open
It was not earned
Nor mine to claim
Yet I find myself filling my pockets
With the trinkets and gold
That come tumbling out of your mouth
Ground between teeth
Leaving your speech unintelligible
I will bury this beneath my own treasure
Leaving a map for you
To never use
 Oct 2018 myjessi
Barry
The importance of you

I often forget when talking to you
How really important you are
Not only to me, but to everyone who knows you
And also to those, yet to know you!

I forget when I was your age
Which was quite a different time!
The struggles, I had knowing myself
Let alone, letting others know me!

How I feared the questions from those close
How it felt like a judging probing knife!
Dissecting me up and down!!
The pressure exploding in my head!!

How I wanted to retreat and hide!
So the questions would not pierce me!
And damage my pride and inner self!
Wounds, I could not yet mend!!

For I was still in search of who I was!
Not certain who I might become!
And fearful that I could never measure up!
To those who would dissect me!

I forget that I was like you!
In those younger days!
Uncertain, like jelly in a mold
Still not set, seeking a future to take hold!

I forget that my path forward was not yet set!
For I needed to grow, beneath my own skin
To give it a chance to breath and gain some type of form!
So I could move forward and shrug those gazing razors aside!

I forget, that I was so like you!
And now, I am the one, throwing that pointed tool!
Forcing you to retreat and hide from those sharpened daggers!
To save your delicate growing inner being, from none other than me!

The one who loves you to the core!
Forgets how much, we are alike!
And pushes impatiently with a point on that fragile mold
In hopes, it will hurry up and take some form!!

Forgetting how important you are!

Barry b
 Oct 2018 myjessi
Sabika
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 Oct 2018 myjessi
Sabika
Words are inadequate.
They break within the sight of doubt.
To get through to you must I shout?
No.
Words aren't enough.
I'll speak through the devotion of emotion,
through the fixture of a picture,
pay attention to my sentence,
focus on its capture.
Through a painting, I'd show you a rapture,
but do not ignore its texture,
it could hide a rupture.

I won't speak to you with words,
I will put on a performance,
to be seen and understood,
to see and understand.

To speak to you, I'll drag you into my world.
To listen, will you hold my hand?
Try listening to someone speak without articulating their words, it sounds very much like they're singing.
 Oct 2018 myjessi
Path Humble
left my phone unlocked
on the taxi’s back seat,
won't be the last time

called it a few times
finally, the driver picked up

he had a fare immediately after mine,
and was now headed way downtown,
and would call later
when fate returned him nearer my office

and so it came to pass,
very shortly thereafter,

we met on the street,
he rolled down  the window
and with the greatest smile of pleasure,
as if he had won the lottery
beaming,
handed me my phone

I had two $20's to cover any expense he might have incurred,
neatly folded in my hand  
and offered it right up, right away;
but the driver repeatedly pushed my hand away
as I insisted,
saying:

"No sir, no no, not necessary!

Allah sent me a fare
that took me soon back close to you, so,
  no loss of time did I suffer,
so your offer is kindly unnecessary!"


to which I replied,

"exactly!
Allah sent you to me
so I could reward you!"


and with an equally, beaming smile I continued,

"our ride and meeting today,
together was pre-ordained it was


Inshallah!" ^

something he could not dispute...
or my knowledge thereof and it’s
proper pronouncement,
nor
his amazement,
to disguise!

  we parted ways
   each believing,
   each receiving,
a heavenly check plus,
each, credited with a mitzvah^^
on our
respective trip logs,
our humanly divine balance sheets,
kept by the
single
supreme taxi dispatcher
Arabic for ^"God/Allah willing" or "if God/Allah wills," frequently spoken by a Muslim


^^a meritorious or charitable act in the Jewish tradition

FYI,
NYC taxi cab drivers are suffering economically by the explosion of ride hailing app cars, many unable to pay their bills, earn a living, have committed suicide over the past few months
https://www.nbcnews.com/news/us-news/sixth-new-york-city-cab-driver-dies-suicide-after-struggling-n883886

true story, poetry is there for the taking
 Oct 2018 myjessi
Albuna
So sad how I want to forget him.
To get over him.
But it’s not that easy as you think...
I saw him yesterday,
our eyes met and my heart exploded.
No! Not again! Don’t fall again!
He smiled and every anger, every hurt was blown away.
He owned me, and he knew what he does to my body.
He knows very well how he can hurt me
How he can destroy me
How he can manipulate me...
I’m just another stupid girl who can’t let go of him.
Who now tries to forget him,
But every time I look into his eyes,
I get lost,
So lost that I can’t find a way back...
Written from a lost soul
 Oct 2018 myjessi
Ali Ashraf
I want to lose myself
in desert, in jungle,
lost in your thought
repeating your name
like an old woman
recites her rosary
until I start to lisp
and my tongue becomes tired

I want to cry
in your longing
until my throat starts to ache
and stops making sound.

Oh, my beloved,
I have never seen
such a grace
that your face holds.
Don't test me more
let us merge and be one
and become careless
about this trembling empire
called the world.

© Ali Ashraf
Just wanted to get it off my chest.
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