watching the clouds from my plane seat listening to Lana Del Rey speak compounding words and motifs wondering how this all came to be me in the sky, diamonds in my eyes and worry draped over me trap me in the mind, time after time the power of potent poetry
swimming in green waters dreaming puking black, trapped in seaweed predator turned prey brown hair turned grey wrinkled skin and confidence caved in just do it already end the suffering just do it already just do it
split mind dichotomy between my head and feet running away, leave towards the sea explore the depths, explore me the shore is suffocating and time is draining my ankles feel burdened carrying all this dead weight let me float into the unknown let me scream at the waves let me unfold let me be reborn again
in a different bed, in a different city yet there are pieces of you that linger in me dreams of your scent, nights breaking bread if only we could hold out until infinity too late, first mistake was falling too late, second mistake was calling
bizarre how my brain twists each and every memory knives in my back from each and every enemy bloodstained, drained energy pumping through mindless days dreadfully
you incubated my fears bottled up my tears yet i cannot help but keep you near you told me here, you hold me dear but you treat me unfair let your lies smear, mascara tears drunken stupor off cheap beers stuck within your toxic atmosphere i pray to see the light of day outside of this
get your hands off of my mouth feel the smoke in my lungs while you burn down our house ashes litter my hair, scratches litter my skin drowning in this love drought watching the new cycle begin is love as destructive as a fire? why is my heart as malleable as tin? I thought it was ok before the light started to dim