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m a k a y l a Mar 2019

You can't tell me it was right
I saw their faces, I saw your face
Pain, sadness, all the bad things, I saw it
I felt their hope fade, the silence in their ears
You can't tell me it was right

You didn't hear the cracking sounds their hearts made
You did't feel the blood pumping throughout their brains
You put a hand on them, you inflicted that pain
But you don't know do you?
It was not right

#angry #sad #wrong #unjust

m a k a y l a Mar 2019

Laugh

I like to watch you laugh
I play it over again in my head in slow motion
The crease in your eyes, the light behind them
I can feel your soul relax, you give it all to God
The backpack full of bricks and regret, you gave it all to God
Your smile takes up half your face, it really is a beautiful sight
The hair in your face, your teething making an appearance, almost primal
I like to watch you laugh

#laughing #beauty #god

m a k a y l a Mar 2019

Joy

I prefer Joy,
Its not always loud or exciting, it can be quiet
That means I can be joyful
No strings attached, no circumstances
Just joy

I prefer Joy,
It doesn't need to be perfect or beautiful
It just wants you
He just wants you
Just joyful

I prefer Joy,
Its a place my spirit can live, it can rest
It can rest in Him, in his glory, his joy
We are His joy, He is ours
In Him, Joy is eternal

#joy #god

m a k a y l a Mar 2019

I Can Feel You

I can feel the way you hurt
I can see it too.
I feel the clench of your heart
Its right on cue
It happens in the dark
I can feel you

I can feel the way your skin burns
Mine does the same
Under the sun, God's laugh
A feeling that can't be tamed
I can feel you

I can feel the way your mouth stretches when you smile
My eyes crinkle at the sides
No traces of senile
The tears are gone, my breath longer divides.
I can feel you

Mar 2019

Alyssa Underwood

A Brutal Discovery of Joy

Joy in the midst of devastating loss, crushing disappointment,
unbearable pain or scourging heartache is about the discovery of
treasure so precious and rare that it never could have been found
had we not been forced to walk a path of affliction in the desert.

It's in the isolation and brutality of the wild that we come to know Him
in ways that transcend the span of human imagining or desiring,
and all the songs and all the poems and all the masterpieces
taken together cannot capture an estimable description
of the pleasures that might be unearthed there.

"O God, You are my God, earnestly I seek You; my soul thirsts for You, my body longs for You, in a dry and weary land where there is no water. I have seen You in the sanctuary and beheld Your power and Your glory. Because Your love is better than life, my lips will glorify You. I will praise You as long as I live, and in Your name I will lift up my hands. My soul will be satisfied as with the richest of foods; with singing lips my mouth will praise You. On my bed I remember You; I think of You through the watches of the night. Because You are my help, I sing in the shadow of Your wings. My soul clings to You; Your right hand upholds me." Psalm 63:1-8

"It was good for me to be afflicted so that I might learn Your decrees. The law from Your mouth is more precious to me than thousands of pieces of silver and gold."
Psalm 119:71-72

Mar 2019

Alyssa Underwood

move on

go on your way
My beloved child
turn aside from
the swerving path
untangle your gaze
to center on Me
stand in courage
hugging wisdom
guard all thoughts
leaning upon My love
release what's behind
and walk on in joy

Proverbs 4

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#moveon #lettinggo #release #wisdom #courage #joy #peace #god #path #love

m a k a y l a Mar 2019

That Friend

Listen,
Why am I always "that friend", the one who is so easy to leave,
You know? That friend that makes the group an odd number
No one likes an odd number.
Listen,
I hate that I am constantly on the outside, I hate it
Why? I force myself into so many groups and friendships
I fall in love with people, they're my people
Listen,
I don't like fake but I surround myself around it, a people person
But why not? Why can't I be fake and be happy? They are
Its always I and we, never you no there can't be a you because if there's a you, then you win, and you can't win.
Listen,
I am "that friend", I have turned into everything I do not want to be
They won't notice, they haven't then and they won't now
If you're that friend, I see you, you are important, and you will find yourself, I did.