i still feel that comfort when im with you
but at the same time i feel nervous when you’re around
I’ve always had the idea of you and I on the back of my mind
don’t know if i should just go for it
or even believe if this is for real

i know i hurt you
but am i that easy to forget?
seeing you with that girl
and that smile on your face
torn me into pieces
wanted to cry so bad
and tried so hard to calm down
had to show everyone i was just fine
yet deep inside i felt like my whole world fell apart
i tell myself; why can’t i let you go?

it’s been a while since I last saw you.
how have you been?
you’ve been on my mind lately,
now i’m wondering
if you still think of me.

i wonder;
do you hate me?
do you miss me?
do you still love me?
such questions just cross my mind.

now i’m not sure if I’m longing for you
or just reminiscing—
but i’m hoping that someday
to have you back in my life
even just as a friend.

This burden I feel, will it ever stop?

With you gone, everything won’t be the same.
You with a smile, I’m left with a teardrop.

The words you promised, just put you to shame.
Who are you to make me feel such a way,
When all I did was just be there for you?

I feel so lone, having so much to say

Knowing you won’t care, leaves me feeling blue.

Tell me how must I get rid of this pain,

Without having you present in my life. 

This burden I feel now, makes me abstain

All of this, that started by a small strife.

Everything does happen for a reason,

Someday I will be free from this prison.

here i am
longing for your affection
makes me feel so gloomy
when will this ever end?
i cant stand seeing you
yet i want to talk to you so bad
my mind goes crazy
whenever you're on my mind
i just want you here by my side
im longing for you
and your love

if you're reading this,
im sorry that i gave up on us
and that i wasn't strong enough to keep holding on
everyone's telling me that i made the right decision
but why am i hurting even more?
it kills me to see you everyday
and i miss you
i just want to hug you tight one last time and tell you that I love you