Mile Conde

Feb 2015

Angelina

I was covered in gasoline
And with the ghost of a smirk playing on on your lips,
You dropped a lit match and set me aflame.

Thick black smoke swallowed me whole
And I felt your fingers dancing across my skin,
searing a path across my body.
I can't see the difference between pain and ecstasy,
(maybe there isn't one at all)
But I can't think of a more violent ecstasy
Or a more pleasurable pain than you--
the beginning to my end.

All that's left to you now is cinder, ash,
And a whispered "I think I love you..."

#love #fire #pain #ecstasy #ghosts #pleasure

Mile Conde Feb 2015

I love you, mom.

I was laying down on the grass. My head was in her lap, and she caressed it adoringly.
She read:

"She was absolutely gorgeous. Around her shone the nameless charms, unmarked by her alone.
The light of love, the purity of grace, the mind, the music breathing from her face!
The heart whose softness harmonized the whole, and, Oh! Those eyes in themselves were a soul."

She paused, and I eased myself from the ground. Sitting up, I looked her in the eyes. She eyed me with such tenderness that mine watered a little.
She said, then:

- "What I just read; it is you. I see you that way. I love you, honey."

Her voice was hoarse, dripping emotion.

A sole, lonely tear fell, wetting my cheek, and I smiled shyly.

I really do love my mom. **Tons.

I just love her so much.
She quoted Lord Byron's "The bride of Abydos".

#love #mom #mother #family #daughter #quote

Mile Conde Feb 2015

Half an arrow in my chest.

Life was dull.
Life was grey.
Life was nothing.
Meaningless.

And then you had me.
And I got lost in your black stormy eyes.
I saw the world through them.
And it didn't seem so grey any more.

It was colorful.
And marvelous
And exciting.
And I was curious.

And then everything was magical.
We were made for each other.
I fell asleep in your arms.
Dreaming of your lips, your laugh.

I gave you everything I had.
I loved you with all my heart.
I closed my eyes
You had found me

But then it all went wrong.
I was in paradise no longer.
And you and your dark irises haunted me.
You drained the color out of my eyes.

It was gone with you.
The lovely place I had imagined
Was long lost
And shattered

All it took to wreck me
Was a brush of your stupid lips
And a broken promise.
Tears wouldn't refuse to brake their chains

And I let them free.
They came out of my eyes.
And it was raining.
Teardrops poured down the sky.

I couldn't stop them.
You had made my world dull once again.
But this time it was worse.
Because now I knew

What happiness is.
And I was missing it.
And I was missing you.
My dreams hit the ground

And the heavy rain
Took them with it.
Water washed away
That few dreamy memories.

They stayed with me
In a little safe in my head.
I deny it's existence.
I won't believe anyone's ******* **ever again.

#love #heartbreak #depression #life #sadness #illusion #promise

Mile Conde Feb 2015

Untitled

What possessed me to love you so fiercely?
I don't know.
I'm sorry.
Won't happen again.

The truth is that he let me down because of my high expectations.

#love #heartbreak #expectations