Michelle

Michelle Aug 2014

The time I forced myself to believe I had moved on, so I wrote this boy a poem

"Someday I'll be enough"
I repeated to myself
Four, five days in a row
Held a blade, pressed down
Oh, how I craved the sorrow

"Everyday will be good"
I mumbled to myself
The city lights ruined my mood
Skipped a meal, got online
Oh, how I craved feeling blue

"One day, I'll be loved"
I thought to myself
Someone else got involved
A cute boy, a cute name
Oh, how I craved not to be alone

"That day is today"
I whispered to you
Won't let you walk away
Cause neither would I, from you
Oh, how utterly happy I am.

I feel like all the titles I'm using make me sound like a Fall Out Boy song and I'm pretty okay with that. written 5 months ago.

#love #depression #hope #happiness #i #you #ednos

Michelle Aug 2014

Why did it take me so long to get over you?

And I kept writing songs
for thoughts I never said
and words I had never spoken
but I swear to God

Your eyes were so
captivating
I wish I had never
looked away.

all these titles are my current feelings about the poems I wrote for that person 5 months ago.

#love #loss #lost #i #you

Michelle Aug 2014

All these papers in my bedside table

And no matter where I go
or what I'm doing in this place
No matter where I turn to
I will always hear your name

And I try not to miss you
but it's driving me mad
You ended up being
the best I never had.

5 months ago

#love #loss #lost #i #you #desperation #miss

Michelle Aug 2014

I still remember the day I wrote this for you

I wanted simple
I craved teardrops
which came from rain
and not my eyes.

I wanted real
I craved feelings
which were honest, true
and not only lies.

But most of all,
I craved a package
labeled "You"
and all that came with it.

5 months ago

#love #i #you #found

Michelle Aug 2014

The one poem that's always made me proud

We'll pull ourselves together
like stitching up our wounds,
mending our own hearts,
finding new lights
where the sun used to shine.

And as we walked
out of the darkness,
we thought to ourselves
Is love meant to be this

How can it be
we lose who we were
for loving someone
too dearly

At one point, we know
we'll find beauty in
other eyes
and as I stared into yours

I lost.

5 months ago

#love #doubt #hope #you #fix

Michelle Aug 2014

Untitled

As the wind whispered
the songs we used to sing,
each ounce of air
left my lungs.

For only I had tried
to be your better half.
I couldn't save your life
from the monsters in the closet,
since you were busy saving mine.

"You're not worthy"
"You're not enough"
were some of the lies
I wasn't here to prove wrong.

But as I looked
at you long ago,
I look at you today.

I'll look at you the same
on our wedding day,
whispering like the wind,
singing lullabies which say

You're perfect.
I will never know
what I did to deserve you
but I'm glad I did.

5 months ago

#love #hope #not #up #i #you #giving

Michelle Aug 2014

Untitled

And as I stood there, hair done
I figured you weren't one to show up
and it killed how I felt about you
but if phoenixes come back from the ashes
maybe we will too.
I hope we will too.

5 months ago

#heartbreak #hope #disappointment