you were always so inconsistent:
one moment, a rock to cling to -
the next, a crumbling cliff.
I sought a sturdy grip
but my fingers slipped all over you.
you never did have a stable foundation,
perhaps that is why you fell apart on me.

Fighting for a reason to get out of bed
To get out of my head
And to touch the ground
I'm swallowing myself whole
If i dont get up now
There is no turning back
The world has giving me lots of reasons to smile and be seen
But none of thoes reasons are the ones that I need

i am no longer fleet of foot
i must finish the race
at my own pace

time has given
time has robbed
it's like i'm living
in a fog

i keep doing
as i've done
for so long

it's all i know
the same old song

sympathy i do not need
empathy is what i bleed

you will ask what i need

dignity an to let me be

dignity is all i have left
time has robbed me of the rest

...and it should never be THAT exciting.  It should be calm.  It should never make your heart beat so fast that it feels like you are gonna explode.  

You should feel calm.

The secrets of the  universe can wait --
The moon in the window is material.
There can be no persuading the Muses to explain …
To an oyster -- its pearl is a masterpiece.


A butterfly may alight on you --
Whispering secrets of forbidden knowledge
As strange to you as the deserts of the moon --
Forget this -- it is enough to save a child's blink.

It hurts when something good ends, but it hurts even more if you cling to something that was never there.