i can be your lover
or i can be your fighter
i can bring you down or
i can make you lighter

i can be your ******
or i can be your *****
i could give you everything
or i could leave you wanting more

i can be your strength
or i can be your weakness
i can be your Bellona
or i could be your Venus

.
.
i want to pull you apart in sections like an overripe orange
and lick all the juice off of your skin
.

why are the eyes in the mirror
so unfamiliar
i'm supposed to see my soul there

oxytocin serotonin rhythm rhythmatic
a dopamine drip like a metronome tick
endorphins crash like waves

~ rest ~

epinephrine more like norepinephrine
neuropeptides simmer down &
monoamines die like flies

a train on its tracks
shake the bones of your house
abruptly reminding you how utterly squishable you are &
how the industrial
rust & metal surrounding you is
unyielding

like a flower blooming
petals uncurling
exposing their silk & velvet insides
vulnerability wet like nectar
waiting for killer bees
who don't want the sweet sap
just the thrill of destruction

i am so confused and mixed up like
an egg beater beaten egg
my shell is cracked
& my brain oozes run on sentences now like
a punctured yolk &
it's trying to tell me something it doesn't know
so it sends me fragmented images
& strings of words like
beads on a broken necklace falling