the depths of despair can be as deep .. as the ocean can be blue
but that's not as deep as the despair i feel when i'm lying here, missing you
blood stains on the ceiling .. hypodermic hell
desperate, broken, bleeding .. as i try to remember your smell
thoughts of how we used to be, flash across my mind
with each and every memory, chemicals unwind
but here i am, still breathing, the person that i used to be
and although i know i'm missing you, i cannot set you free
always and forever a place within my heart
you think you know the bitter end, but that's the place to start

(c) p skez and msrigs 22/08/2015

How did it feel at the end ?.. were your legs as heavy as your heart as you took your last journey, upwards .. all the way to the top.
What led you to this place?. so broken, so defeated..
I can only imagine how wounded you must have felt, knowing your demise was considered entertainment to the crowd below. Goading you to jump, baying shamelessly for your blood. Updating social media status' .. phones pointed upwards so they could capture your misery and share it with the world.
That must be a very lonely place to be .. .
Did they not comprehend that you were someone's child, perhaps someone's Father.
Their lack of compassion could only have added to your brokenness, your feeling of being alone, misunderstood, unloved.
They left you no options, encouraging you to die like that, when you so obviously needed a kind voice, a kind heart to show you the way down to safety.
Did they enjoy the show ..as you came falling from the sky, did the crowd fall silent as you hit the ground ... LIFELESS .. Do they even comprehend how greatly they have sinned?
May I apologise on behalf of humanity, or share your grief for the lack of.
I hope you have gained the peace, you so desired and didn't get whilst here on earth.


(for the guy who commited suicide, jumping from a multi storey this weekend, spurred on by the crowd below)

(msrigs 17/03/2016)

I look at you, you look at me.
I guess its ****** chemistry.

I can be all, that I can be,
when you look like that at me.

Give me eyes, come to bed.
lets just leave the rest unsaid ...

your eyes suggest, you're loving me,
I love the way you look at me.

Honest truth, so do mine,
I think our love is just divine

climbing higher with my desire,
falling straight into your fire

can taste your pleasure,
feel your pain,
lets get it on a- fkin -gain

(c) mandy rigby 17/03/2014

many stars that I have seen
you eclipsed all with your beam
your light is like an orb
far too much to absorb
your light shines so bright
it can obscure the stars at night
make them look light years behind
that is how you blow my mind

(c) mandy rigby 08/06/2014

A genuine kiss, eyes closed,
a passionate kiss, tips on face hold,

a loving kiss, hold me more tightly,
beautiful concept, do it forthrightly

a genuine kiss, shy or bold,
weak at the knees, now I'm sold

a mind blowin kiss, rock me steady,
a lovers kiss, eyes shut .. im ready

just give me a kiss , lock on my lips
pull me closer, caress now my hips

hands on the small of my back
hit me with a kissin attack

now I'm dreaming
falling flying

your kisses have style
there's no denying

(c) mandy rigby 25.06.2014

I'm in the gutter, skinny and pale
God bless me with a poetry sale
got lots of words but got no food
somethin to eat would improve my mood
words could be my bread and butter
i can type them all , without a st stutter
someone send a cheque to me
and put my poetry on tv
21st century pam eyres
I really hope that someone cares
let the poetry spill from my lips
as I'm dreamin oven chips

(c) p skez and ms rigs 07/10/2014

please give to me a proper job
otherwise I'm on the rob
me tummy hearts n me eyes are poppin
as around the shop i go hoppin
gonna steal new shoes, leave the old ones behind
security .... I'll blow ya mind
aberdeen angus, 21 day steak
come on tesco's give me a break
gonna nick whiskey, and fine wine
I'll be popular come tea time
gonna get the dress of my dreams
a vivien westwood, with tailored seams
lingerie, make up, and perfume
i'll get some attention .. in my living room

(c) msrigs 07/10/2014