A list of things for when you think you just can’t take it anymore
1. things get better.
at least thats what everyone will tell you
every time something goes wrong inside of your head.
But you reply with something along the lines of
“that’s what everyone says”.
What that person forgot to tell you
is that things only become cliche when they’re said a lot
or at the wrong moments
but most cliches are true, and it’s too easy to disregard cliches
2. there are people out there who love you
i mean, sure, the last time your best friend said that was months ago
and she’s stopped checking in on you
to see if you’re okay
but she loves you.
At least that’s what you should convince yourself of for a minute.
She has told you time and time again how important you are to her
yet lately that doesn’t show
and you feel like you’re fading fast
3. get help.
okay, but you don’t understand how hard it is
to get help
when I still blame myself for this hell that I am in
when I feel undeserving and help
feels unnecessary.
some days it feels out of reach
because not being able to take it anymore
might mean not being able to even whisper
“help”
but they’ll keep telling you to get help.
no they don’t know how it feels, but they can’t help you anymore
4. people will miss you
and if that thought isn’t reassuring, or people were never your type
think about your dog
think about your cat
they will miss you
they say that a dog is a man’s best friend
your cat will have no one to sleep next to in the frigid winter months
but don’t forget that friendships are a two person relationship
think about the flowers you planted in your garden
how sad will it be if you are not there to see them bloom
5. sometimes things are too much
sometimes the weight of the world is too much for you to carry
the weight of the world is too much for ME to carry
sometimes things feel like they’re too much
but I don’t know what to say to you to make things better
I wish i could help
I wish i could have helped
I want to help you just let me in
WHY don’t you ever let anyone in
I don’t know why I can’t let anyone in
6. I’m sorry.
o.o.