I still have that image of your lifeless body lying in that hospital bed
Some days I can't get it out of my head
When your mother sees me she cries
I can't help but ask why
Her eyes blood shot
Her head a mess
I remember she looked down and said
It should've been me instead

You fell in love with me.

I just hope you jumped.
Not slipped.

the type of boy who drinks a bottle for each of his problems and doesn't realize he's created a whole new one until it's too late.

if i could
i would come to you

if i could
i would talk to you

if i could
i would miss you

if i could
i would hate you

if i could
i would do all
these things
but
i couldn't do
a single thing

i couldn't come to you
i couldn't talk to you
i couldn't miss you
i couldn't hate you

all i could do is
to love you
a little too much
being far away
from you
knowing that
you don't
love me
like i do.....

I never told you that I loved you.

The ice it clinks
the straw it stirs
you're making drinks
that won't drown her

She's up all night
you put her to bed
but she puts up a fight
falls asleep with the drink in her hand

Sneak out for a smoke
she's fast asleep anyway
when I came back, she awoke
baby why'd you go away?

But shh you're there now
she's already passed out again
with her little body curled around
yours, she's asleep with a grin.


*s.mndi

have i seen her since?
i haven't
although i see her everywhere i turn
everywhere i go
and in everything i do

yes i miss her and it hurts like hell
but i have to let my body feel this