do you know
how hard it is
to walk smiling
when all you feel is pain
sadness and tears on your face?

She paints a pretty picture

Her favorite color is red

The brush is constantly busy

She paints for hours in her desolate room

So secluded from reality

It drips


Too much paint causes damage to the canvas

This canvas has become a mess

It cannot be fixed

But still she won’t stop


So badly she wants help

She cannot stop painting

Addiction

Paint is everywhere

But it is now mixed with tears

She ruined something so fragile and beautiful


This painting has a twist

Her eyes are swollen

Her tears sting

Too much red


Fragile

Beautiful

Forgotten

Broken


Too much painting

Too much red

And I realize
The only thing;
The only animal
The only creature I really hate
Is myself

all of these girls asking
"who would love a girl with
scars"
need to shut the hell up
cause i won't love you for your scars
the way i won't love you
for the color of your eyes
or for the sound of your voice
you can only love a soul
and a mind
so make your mind ******* glorious
and your soul worth adoration
and forget about your teenage mistakes
or no one indeed will love you

Today we started speaking
After what felt like years
While my heart continued breaking
Day by day I was drowning in my tears
Crying myself to sleep every night
Wondering why he left me to dry
With an overwhelming desire for one more last love bite,
For you to give us one more try

But now I feel dead inside
Without you here holding my hand
I would run back for you but
I have too much pride
Everything's gone, you, me, our names in the sand

Today we started speaking
After what felt like years
Though my heart continues breaking
I still love you after all the tears