I don't want to care
So I hide all trace of emotion in all the make up I wear
'Cause when you care, you feel
And I'm trying to numb the pain in hope that I might heal
These voices in my head are driving me insane
But the more I try, the more they sound like someone real
That's all because when you care, you feel

The emptyness I fell has become more easier to bare
But there's no one beside me, which seems quite unfair
Everyday I feel as if I'm dying, but really I just want to be saved
Yet, I get a sense of relief at the thought of a tombstone with my name engrave
There's some days where I'm overcome with a feeling of despair
As my heart is now broken far beyond repair
That's all 'cause when you care, you feel

Everything I've been through has turned me cold-blooded
This gruesome journey has now left me broken-hearted
That's all 'cause when you care, you feel

Sitting in a corner all alone
Refusing to talk and feeling cold to the bone
I have isolated myself from people
To keep safe from all the bad and evil
But this isn't really me

I'm driving all my friends away
And I know they'll stop trying one day
I'm alive but I'm barely breathing
But I know this isn't really me

Its hard
To think of myself as beautiful
When all i can see
Are the flaws that surround my body
Its hard
To think of myself as affectionate
When all i can see
Is the emptiness holding me down
Its hard
To think of myself as happy
When all i can see
Is the sadness inside of me

Do you ever wonder why bad things happen to you
In my life I constantly do
Can I maybe live someone else's life
'Cause I'm sick of always resorting to my knife
Whenever this monster inside me decides to arrive
And break me down , making it harder to survive

In the beginning I felt comfort in my misery
There were days of happiness that disappeared in a hurry
Too quickly for me to grasp on to
The things I say and the things I do
Seem to be said or done when I'm unaware
Which resulted in me finding no one there
Deep down I really did care

But I was controlled by a monster that I call beth
She took over the thoughts in my mind
And barried the old me, making it harder to find
She took pleasure in seeing me constantly cry
And her aim was for me to eventually die

There's a monster inside me that I call Beth
And day by day she slowly drove me to my death

Roses are dead
Violets are crying
I'm in hospital
They say I'm dying

I wear my heart upon my sleeve
Let outsiders in
Knowing they'll soon leave

I never come across as broken
Though my words are hardly spoken
Most days I have a blank expression
Though my thoughts are full of aggression
I hold on to every remark
Tears crash down after dark

My body becomes numb
Everytime I feel done

Someday soon I will leave
Then most will be pleased
When I'm gone there will be no sorrow
They'll go on like nothing happened tomorrow.