Because of you,*
my favorite shades of blue are now ugly.
Everything that you ever told me is now
some form of anxiety I don't want to hear
sometimes I wish you'd just disappear..

I'm 9 going on
all of ten, when:

reading TO ****>>>
A MOCKING BIRD.

I wanted to be Scout
when I grew up

didn't matter I was
a boy

just wanted to be
her

that great explorer
of how to be

in the world

that great frontier of
becoming.

Then, in '67
the bus crash happened

& there was always
that empty chair

a nowhere of me
always calling my sister's name.

I became Boo
Radley.

living inside my head
like it was a haunted house

with a me who wasn't
me no more

looking out of eyes
that belonged

to someone
else

like Boo...
I didn't

".. have anywhere
to run off to..."

I read a poem
it reminded me of you
You flooded my mind
my head's spinning now