Summer raining on the Eastern seaboard
I liked you better before November, personally

There are metal shards floating in this bathwater
Their own tiny islands of pain
A mirror in shards face up on the floor
Guess that is just another 7 years of bad luck

Pennies are dropping into the bathtub
Copper going plink plink plink
Tiny rivulets running their paths

That's just the sound of my lifeline going down the drain, again
Smells like metal and tastes like pain
Red river gushing from my veins

Locked door trying to staunch the flow of secrets
Head swimming to the tile floor
clink clink clink

Scars these days open so easily
Like the Raven said, Nevermore

Daydream,
I don’t care when
And I don’t really care
Why.
Just do it.
Although,
At times
It may seem like
It’s just a waste of time
That it just gets
Your hopes up.
What else are you supposed to do?
Think of nightmares?
The things that make you,
Cringe,
Curl up,
And cry?
I know, I know
Its just a day dream,
It will probably
Never
Ever
Happen,
But that’s a dream.
They’re supposed to be there.
For you.
When nothing
And no one is.
They protect,
Your hope.
And I know,
Nightmares
Are easier,
To believe in,
They seem
Real.
But day dream,
You’ll be happier.
For a while.

Maybe,
You don’t know.
That I cared,
Or that I would’ve done
Anything.
To show you,
That I loved you,
I wouldn’t leave.

I thought,
Staying with you,
And trying
As hard as I did.
Would’ve proved that to you.
That I loved you,
And I would stay.

Maybe,
You never cared,
Or maybe you met her.
And
Maybe
She’s just better.
I don’t know
Why.
I wish,
I wish I did.

I thought,
Fighting for us,
And defying everyone,
And everything,
That tried to keep us
Apart
Showed you how much,
I cared.

Maybe,
I thought,
I was enough.

Maybe,
I’ll be lucky.
And one day,
I’ll stop thinking,
About you,
About all the things we did,
Together,
Of the way your lips felt,
I can still feel them,
It gives me butterflies,
But then I start
To cry.
Because I’ll never
Feel them again.
Maybe,
One day,
I’ll forget you,
And all of our
Happy memories.
Because they
Make me miss you.
Or maybe,
Ill forget,
That you promised
To come back,
Then that date
Won’t hurt,
I hope.
And if I’m really lucky,
Maybe,
One day,
You’ll come back.

I could write about you,
For days on end
Of the happiness you gave me,
Days I spent falling for you
Of how beautiful your lips where,
Or how your voice sounds
Just when you say my name
I can write about your eyes
And the way they lit up
When I said I love you,
That I was yours for forever.
I could easily tell the entire world
You are perfect.

I will write about you
For the rest of my life
About all of the memories you left me
The days and nights you spent fooling me,
The butterflies you filled me with,
Telling me you love me
Only me
How you lied and made me fall,
Or how you didn’t catch me when I did.
I will tell anyone that you made me believe,
In a fairy tale happy ever after
Then just left
Gladly,
I will tell the world,
You are not perfect
You were just a good actor

You’re drowning
Dying to flee the current,
Trying to fight it
Even though you’re already under
With waves crashing over your head,
You’ll rise to the surface
And scream for someone to help
Jut before the current takes you back under
Again
And its hard,
I know you’re fighting to survive
But you’ve been gone
And its been so long,
Since you took your last breath,
There isn’t much time,
You’re dying in a crowd,
And no one cares enough to save you,
Not from yourself,
Not ever.