i.
i am not angry,
and i won't be.
how someone could stay mad at you
is a ******* mystery to me.
ii.
maybe
you were right,
and not everyone
is an enigma.
but i believe that you are.
i believe that we are.
iii.
i still have all your letters.
iv.
speaking of letters,
i've tried writing you one before.
but words and humans
do not often cooperate.
v.
i hope you start a new york jar again.
you won't.
but i hope you do.
vi.
i will not forget you.
i will think of you,
and i hope you think of me, too,
on those days when the sky is a shade too dark
and your soul feels a little bit too empty.
vii.
i know now
that i do not
have to do anything.
viii.
i love you.
past.
present.
future tense.
i love you.
and i know you love me.
ix.
i hope you see this.
someday.
x.
shakespeare once said
that life's but a walking shadow.
but i believe --
i know --
that you are destined for something greater.
you
are going to make it.
xi.
if, by some miracle,
i can find a word,
a song,
a quote,
anything,
to describe you,
to do you justice,
i will let you know.
i hope you'll do the same for me.
xii.
i'm sorry.
for everything.
i wish it didn't end up this way,
but it did,
and so i won't waste time complaining.
but truly,
i am sorry.
xiii.
someday
you'll find happiness.
xiv.**
and maybe,
if the stars align,
and the water's calm,
someday you'll find me, too.
(a.m.)
i love you.
goodbye.