Sometimes
it scares me
how every word
comes out,
from my mouth,
without me
granting it.

Subconsciousness taking over,
Releasing the innate power.
Although this is happening,
I'm unsure if it's me that's talking.

I'm drunk but declares sober,
That's just me like any other.
It's the game that everyone's playing,
Being caught but still pretending.

Tonight let me release the other,
It's been hidden like forever.
Let this be a temporary remedy,
For my lingering insanity.

Tomorrow let me suffer,
Multiply the thoughts that come over.
No one can escape from reality,
Perhaps that's the real tragedy.

Observe and uncover the truth,
Behind the man in a defensive suit.

Take away your ignorance and find a clue,
Save him from yet another feud.

He is delicate but masked to stay protected,
Refrain the rumors that he is cold-hearted.

Stop him from hardening his armor,
And a change you'll find in another encounter.

The reason why we condemn
Egos exist on our realm
People fighting contentment
Struggling to have acknowledgment

That's how it is
All are born narcissists
Nobody wants to be still
Nobody wants to disappear

Nobody
wants to be
Nobody.

Never underestimate a heart of gold
For it crashes down firm shield which I've invested upon from birth.
Never did I plan to let my guard down for you to witness who is who
But your pure kindness pass through painfully as it carved its existence to my soul.

My heart is weary and vulnerability displayed.
Never once did I felt so naked in front of whoever in my years of living
Embracing this change I dare to never progress but it's though as if I didn't succeed
My shield was shattered and blocking your presence, I failed.

I inhaled the lethal smoke from the stick between my fingers,
eyes closed as I submit myself getting lost to its effect.
Exhaling as if a long day's conflicted thoughts
would dissipate along with it.

Let me write you a letter
Of one that's full of love and appreciation
To tell you genuine sentiments and not of lies
Let my words clear your clouded mind

Lovely as you are
No need to change a thing
Your effort to smile even though you're breaking
Gratefulness I can only give

Carefully choosing your words
Staying strong for the strangers' confessions
You try to conceal your own emotions
And give sympathy for them to move on

My heart aches for the others
Ignorant of your own world
You stay silent not because of secrecy
But because you knew how far one can hold

I watch you from afar
Lucky enough to speak to you once in a while
As we know how it goes
I speak your language and you did mine

Little time together we spent
Subtly looking for someone to comprehend
Our simple joys of being heard
A little depth of insights we shared

Now we're on separate ways
I wish you only happiness
May you find people who appreciate you
And let them lighten your burdens.