You know you're broken when
Laughter sounds like tears.
And you have so many dark fears.
When your smile doesn't reach your eyes.
And Your world is surrounded by lies.
When you have no need for life.
You stare and wonder at your knife.

You know you're broken when
You can't do anything right.
In your soul, there's no longer light.
When you can't be happy anymore.

It calls me closer, its calls me near
Death whispers in my ear
Irresistible is its sweet entice
Staring down, which one to slice,
I observe my previous tries
My unseen hurt and cries
No peace in my mind, no peace in my head
The quiet intelligent, long since fled
Anger and rage consumes me
My minds demons bursting to be free
The walls of my cage finally cave
"Just be you, just be ******* brave"
I slash down with a knife
"Forget this world, forget my life"
Blood oozes and drips down the drain
A slight tingle but no real pain
A calmness comes over me
My last attempt please, it's got to be
***** everyone, that's made me into this
The very same people who I'm going to ******* miss
Tears stream down my cheek,
My head feels heavy, I get dizzy and legs go weak
Then nothing.... Blankness, no sound
I feel my body drifting
I hear scraping, something's stirring around
Surrounding me, I can here creatures shifting
I hear a scream, I hear a moan
I want my family, I'm all alone
I hear a cry, I hear a sob
And realize it's my own  
No sound out my mouth, only in my mind
No one to help me, no one for me to find
I've never felt so scared....
My soul finally screamed in despair
I know i'm supposed to be a grown up
but
"I give up..."

"Goodbye dad" I had to say
A few months ago on this very day
I'll remember the good times and try not to be sad
But saying goodbye still hurts so ******* bad

I miss you more then I can express
My love for you will never ever grow less
I keep trying to imagine how I will go on
I realize tomorrow is another **** dawn

I know you're in heaven above
Looking down on us with all your love
Only to whisper in our ears
"Remember that I'll never stopped loving you dear"

I'll always remember the good times we had
Remember the man, my wonderful dad
I'll remember you each and every day
And if I need to talk to you, I'll just sit down and pray

Soon we'll be together again
To talk about all the places we've been
Until the time I'll always treasure
Having you for a dad was such a great pleasure

The bruises, the scars
The ones that will never heal
She grew up thinking that's how you need to feel

This little girl
Not sure about life
Cut after cut
Those took her life...

Tears come as she leaves this world
"So young, So happy" For all they know
Beaten in her mind as a child
Not loved all her life


Oh wait that's my life...