kanma Oduwegwu

kanma Oduwegwu Dec 2015

I wake this place up
To bare my woes to the world
letting youngster recover from health
Giving guilt covered in laughter
This job i'd gotten from d onset of time....
Treachery , piracy,poverty and purgatory.

But this day I reawake
Shake my conscience with warm milky drinks
hold my hands by myself with myself
forgiving past and present hurts
reminding my self of the star in the dream
the visions of light....made plain to me

Will I let all this go?
having hangover keepsakes of no worth?
******* grinds and grinding peace?
Playing with hearts that look like flesh...
as the woman in me reminds me
Star-girl you rock .....don't give them a chance
The wounds will heal and the scars you'll forget
Overlook the pains
Push through this bush
The the road so bright is behind the ticket.......

****bitter after taste of rash, sour decisions

#loveplaypainwounds

Dec 2015

Stages and Ages

Untitled

I am an independent person,
I am not an add-on to your life.
I am an independent person,
I cannot have my freedom taken from me.
I am an independent person,
I will be who I want to be.
I am an independent person,
You cannot tell me,
What I can and cannot be.

When you use your past to control my future.
I haven't written in a while, so I'm a little rusty

#love #heartbreak #freedom #future #relationships #past #control #present #independence

kanma Oduwegwu Nov 2015

Haunting shadows

These days in doubt
my sanity proven
culled from my lovitude
or should I say attitude
maybe solitude
'cos I thought I was on guard
Until fall I did
without a thud,
slowly the fade began
until the voice stopped
no more reprimands
questions stopped
conscience slept
and I roared
happy to soar
then it returned
Fear,
pain,
uncertainty
and I retraced my steps
not without scars
for this haven we savoured
with its perks and glints
now hold ashes
for me,
us,
I can't sit still without thinking
of purity sold
guard let down
to lovitude's joy
as sorrow flooded
The wasted me

I might not relate to this
but I do translate it
can I still sit in your arms
without regrets of disappointments thrown
of regrets without end
for that moment this madness began.

#love #pain #mistake #purity #breach #unforgiveness

kanma Oduwegwu Nov 2015

Sometimes i remember

In anger and hate
I stormed out the house
the shadows of love
we built to our taste
in concrete and blood of relatives left
I wish I could stay
but never will I

I remember things
but to forget you I forget
holding hurt and guile or me and my thoughts
rarped up it tots that never was bought
I really wish I remember to forget you
but never will I

Where is this coming from?
What do I want from you
I left and I remember
so why not forget

#love #fun #hearts #unbelieve

Nov 2015

Kai Myers

For You,

It was unspoken,
words refused to move.

A silent decision was made,

You'd be seeing less of me,
it was okay as long as everyone was happy.

For the love that never got to live,

It lived again,
Spring thawed.

I was torn away from my love,

As long as you got yours,
I was alright.

This is dedicated to my alter Stormy.

#love #disorder #identity #dissociative

Nov 2015

Kai Myers

For You,

It was unspoken,
words refused to move.

A silent decision was made,

You'd be seeing less of me,
it was okay as long as everyone was happy.

For the love that never got to live,

It lived again,
Spring thawed.

I was torn away from my love,

As long as you got yours,
I was alright.

This is dedicated to my alter Stormy.

#love #disorder #identity #dissociative

Nov 2015

Kai Myers

For You,

It was unspoken,
words refused to move.

A silent decision was made,

You'd be seeing less of me,
it was okay as long as everyone was happy.

For the love that never got to live,

It lived again,
Spring thawed.

I was torn away from my love,

As long as you got yours,
I was alright.

This is dedicated to my alter Stormy.

#love #disorder #identity #dissociative