I tried to make a lamp into the sun.
It burns my eyes like the sun does,
But finds itself only half as gorgeous.
The real is too much for me to bear.

I search for you
in my dreams

I see the people,
The places,
and things
That surrounded us
But you are not there

It doesn’t stop me from
Running here and there
Looking frantically;
Hoping for a glimpse
Of you

I ask about you and they point to
An address that doesn’t exist
An empty hallway
An impenetrable crowd

Are they helping me
Or
Mocking me?

I press on

Because

Your perfume lingers,
so I know that you’re here
Somewhere

I wouldn't get your love anymore
Babe, just smile at me one last time
I can't stop my tears from falling down
Just turn your eyes back to me one last time!

I don't want you to back to me
but don't get me wrong,
I don't want you to be next to me
Just listen to my song.
I don't want anything anymore
Just talk to me one last time!

I wouldn't see you at my door
at full moon night
You can go on your own way
I have no more fight
left in me, I know
I know I have no right anymore!

I have nothing to say
You do not need to stay
Do not need to stay close to me
My heart is broken but I can see
You're dreaming without me!

Do you have a heart or not
Do you have love for me or not
If you stay apart from me
Still then, have a good time,
Have a good time all the time.

I wanted to say thankyou
To everyone that reads
The poems of this woman
with her heart upon her sleeve
Your comments really move me
and never fail to raise a smile
it makes this urge I have to write
seem all the more worthwhile.
I love to read your poems too
they always lift my mood
some sad, some mad, some funny
and some are downright rude!
I guess that what I want to say
and the way to put it best
is I've never touched so many folks
Without fear of arrest. :-)

like water
I poured myself into her until she was overflowing at the brim

like reinforced steel
I bridged my heart to hers and welded myself to her soul

like the sun
I filled myself with light to cover her darkness

like a blanket
I shielded her from the harsh world underneath the covers

like magnets
I orbited her aura until we inevitably collided

like a seed
I felt myself growing up from her

Then, like an idiot
I could tell she felt nothing.

i exhale smoke
into the sky
painting the clouds
a little greyer

not to be like the "cool kids"
not even to get high

i just want my lungs
to be as broken
as my heart feels

i only drink
the sweat
dripping from
my lips

i only move
if it makes my
muscles burn

i only breathe
if it hurts

i'm breathing in
my own
suffocation