I claw and scratch at the surface,
Relentlessly trying to escape.
Trying to save my life.

No trust comes from me,
I hide it deep within.
Poker faced.

My nails bleed with precision.
They are crying out to me.
Numbing the hate, the pain.

I am restless.
Relentless.
Alone.

No love,
No hate.
Just numbness and pain.

I claw and scratch at the surface,
Of heavens gates.
Only to fall.
Beyond the walls of hell.

I am self conscious within myself,
Nothing to say.
Nothing to be of use.

Just going through the realms,
Between me and you..

tempestuous heartache
   & sundried tears
exhaled whispers
   & combustible caresses

unilateral monogamy
   & bipolar love
singular sensations
   & conjoined sensuality

degrading hopelessness
   & elevated vulnerability
decelerated time
   & soaring spirituality

The worst part
Isn't that you're dying.
It is
The fact that I can't forget it
*It's everywhere I go

Last night i almost lost you
and i remembered everything.
The songs you taught me to sing
every joke we annoyed mom with
how you knew everyone we ran into on the street.
I realized
that i cannot imagine what it will be like
if you miss
my high school graduation
my first day of college
my wedding day...
and i know that you might not make it
long enough to experience
all of those things.
but i can simply not imagine my life
without you here.

We are the fallen.
Buried deep within.
Ourselves we know sin.

We are the faltering,
Constantly making mistakes,
Never knowing what comes next.

Make haste my friend,
Don't curl into that ball of fear.
Do not cry those tears.

Look out into the open,
The valleys, The meadows, The streams.
Beyond city walls,
You can be free.

We are the Fallen,*
You are the free.*

Be free...

Exeunt away,
For it has come.
The Cataclysm of your life.

May your exodus be swift my dear.
For your life is put to the test.
Twisting left and right.

So *exeunt!
You shall live.
If you run.

If thou choseth to stay.
I warn thee of thy competitor.
The dark one of thy soul.

Come forth and Exeunt with me,
Live.
Be free.

*EXEUNT!