"If I take what I have
am I holding on to anything at all?"
This life I'm leading,
is it one with substance?
I don't want to reach for water
only to have it trickle though my fingers
leaving me with cold, empty hands
covered in scars to prove my struggle
but void of anything physical to show for it
as I sink into the holding place
of forgotten things
I want to flourish in the sea,
have the waters hold me above,
rock me back and forth
as a sort of comforting gesture,
and feel the warmth of the sun
as I float further into the horizon
forgetting to look back
"I'm never coming back again"

if i can't sleep beside you i don't want to sleep at all
i'd rather be an orphan in the places where i fall

and i'll continue living like i never had a home
make everywhere i'm going just another place to roam

there's not a single step that i can purposely explain
but all of them collectively are holding fast today

it's not the kind of feeling you could ever even dream
i'm nothing but myself the days i'm nothing like i seem

I will not lose You once again
I need Your strength, I need a friend
I can't remember where I am
But if I hear You, I will stand
And if my knees give out once more
I'll crawl upon this hardened floor  

I want to reach the end with those
I've ever had the chance to know
To bring You people's breaking hearts
And show You how they fall apart
Examine me and test my soul
Until it's time to make me whole

And take the thoughts I cannot bear
Restore the truth from everywhere
A lighter head can set ablaze
A world that's seeking brighter days
The end will come when Love itself
Has filled the space outside of hell