Bright ideas but I like my room dark, So when I start thinking I disturb my own comfort zone.

hands inspire words to be typed by other hands
my heart is beating
i can see it
my stomach bounces a little each time
low blood pressure typically means a low chance of heart disease but a big chance of not giving much of a **** about anything
bed stained where skin touched skin beautiful act ugly reminder
dont clip fingernails often enough stay ***** work in food industry
coffee farmers drink coffee made from the worst beans of the harvest magnum opus never experienced by artist
motorcycles are a good way of saying i have a lot of money and care about nothing

You don't need ocean eyes
to drown someone.
When I looked at you
I wondered,
*Why drown in blue
when I can look into your
forest green eyes
And suffocate on branches
and leaves
as they sprout from my throat?

Bring me back to the time
When all I have is You
When I was content and satisfied
Simply having You by my side

You said, “I am your very great reward”
That I should fix my eyes on You
And not sway from side to side
Comparing myself to the people around

Seek first My kingdom
Be content and do not compare
“Am I not enough for you?”
These were what You said

I long to look to You again
To fix my eyes on alone
To be satisfied at where I am
Despite the changing seasons

I hate the feeling I get
when I think about you
Your eyes,your sweet smile
your even sweeter lies

I hate the feeling I get
when I hear your name
My heart stops
and I can't breathe
My throat is sore and I start to shake

I hate the way I see you everywhere
In every stranger, every dark corner of the streets
I hate the way I find pieces of you
in music and my favorite songs and poetry

I hate the way I can't hate you
And I miss,oh I miss that one
night that you were mine
even if it wasn't for real, even if it all was a lie
I had you once,for one moment
nothing more
Oh why can't I let it go?

I have made bad decisions  myself in this here world.
I have wander away at times from the path that I was on.
At times I slip and fell, not rising back up like I should have.
With this in mind, my prayer is for those hurting right now.
Whom might have made bad decisions out of their hurt.
Even others whom made bad decisions for other reasons.
For we know not their hearts, only Christ can see theirs.
Only Christ knows why each of us do the very things we do.
So only he can judge each of us for the mistakes we have done.