there are the many ways
i could try to explain
what a deep dark hole it is..
but the bottom of the this pit
is so far down
you wouldnt be able
to hear me
if i did.

There is this pain inside of me
Caused mainly by your apathy
It screams at me with silence
And I cover my ears to no difference

There’s also my anxiety
That chokes my heart without mercy
As all these questions fill my mind
Whose answers I don’t want to find

Will you ever care for me
Will you ever share with me
The love I’ll crave for endlessly
Will this end in futility

All I want is to talk to you
I have this need to know what’s true
Why would you deny me the right
To save myself from my own blight

You were my only thread of hope
Out of this void, my escape rope
As soon as I latched on, you snapped
Now in my own darkness I’m trapped.

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Good night, because we must,
How intricate the dust!
I would go, to know!
Oh incognito!
Saucy, Saucy Seraph
To elude me so!
Father! they won’t tell me,
Won’t you tell them to?

love is a funny thing, it's true
sometimes it seems made up
until it happens you
until you find yourself in a crowded room
and you realize , suddenly
that maybe this world was made for just two

talk about restless;
minutely i change my mind
make plans,
change them,
forget about them,
and make more plans.
blend them together
now pull them apart.

i do the same with my looks
and my words
and my thoughts...
that's the scary part;
for a girl so restless,
you sure make me wanna stay.