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Joann Mar 2015
Here it comes
I can feel it surging up
Out of nowhere the feeling of unease conquers my mind
Out of nowhere my thoughts are blank and I suddenly cant breathe
Out of nowhere my hands start shaking and I feel so nauseous

Out of nowhere my anxiety controls me
Joann Apr 2015
Hands shaking
Mind racing
Thoughts clouded
The room loudens
I cant breathe
I cant see
Hello my names Anxiety
Joann Mar 2015
The volcano will erupt if you let it
So hold it in
Your mind will shut down if you let it
So hold it in
You will start to panic if you let yourself
So hold it in
You will stop breathing if you let yourself
So let it out
But you should know
Once your volcano of anxiety explodes
Its hard to make it stop
Joann Apr 2015
Anxiety is like a volcano
Once your emotions build up too high
It all explodes
And its just like a volcano
Because its so hard to make it stop
Joann Mar 2015
Why does it need to be so hard?
All of my good memories are suddenly scarred.

The battle in my mind is a constant war.
Maybe I want less, but maybe I want more.

I'm always confused, I cant make up my mind.
Nobody cares when I cant decide.

When they see I feel anxious, they don't think about it twice.
They don't understand the way my mind fights.

Always living in fear, that you'll do something wrong.
They think you're ok but you're already gone.

My stomach hurts and now I cant breathe.
What happened to the girl who used to live with ease?

Slowly you start to fade away.
It seems that today is never your day.
Joann Jun 2015
Happy girl
Sad girl
Pretty girl
Ugly girl
Smart girl
Dumb girl
Nice girl
Mean girl
Sweet girl
Broken girl
Laughing girl
Crying girl
Smiling girl
Damaged girl
Happy girl
Dead girl
Joann May 2015
We are as invincible as we believe ourselves to be
-Looking for Alaska
Joann Aug 2015
and as I beg for you to remember me
I realize that to you
I'm already nothing
but a distant memory
Joann Apr 2015
Do it again
Over and over
Redo and retry
But you need to get it right perfectionist
No more slacking
But not that there ever was
150% 24/7
Aren't you tired?
No
Shouldn't you give up for now and try later?
No
Why?
Because I need it to be perfect right now
Joann Apr 2015
Society: You're so ugly
Girl: But I'm happy
Society: You're too fat
Girl: But I'm happy
Society; You're not pretty enough
Girl: But I'm hap-
Society: Stop trying nobody likes you
Girl: But I'm h-
Society: Nobody cares about you
Girl: But-
Society: Go away why are you talking to me? Loser
Society: Wait where did you go?
Society: Come back!
Society: Why would she **** herself?
Society: She was so pretty and nice and everybody liked her why would she go?!
Society: We will miss you
It hurts people
Joann Apr 2015
We tell people to embrace themselves
We tell people to be different
But when they are different we laugh at them
We make fun of them

Because that's what society has taught us to do

We tell people not to care what others think
We tell people not to worry about others
But obviously you should care about what we think
And obviously you should care about everything in others lives

Because that's what society has taught us to do

We tell people it doesn't matter if you're skinny
It doesn't matter if you're not pretty
But if you're not then what are you?
You're the laughingstock of society

Because that's what society has taught us to think

Oh wait where are you going?
Come back
Why did you cut yourself?
Why did you **** yourself?
Come back to society we would never hurt you
society hurts
Joann May 2015
Do you remember who you were, before the world told you who you should be?

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