wow your hair is amazing today,
your skin looks flawless,
eyes are filled with so much light,
the smile on your face is so bright,
you tell yourself over and over,
but you don't believe in your words.

your hair is so frizzy,
you have lots of acne,
your eyes are ugly,
you always frown,
they tell you over and over,
that even you tell it to yourself now,
and believe it all.

I’m happy
(I’m depressed)

I love myself
(I hate myself)

I can’t wait to live my life
(I can’t wait to die)

I am lucky to have my friends
(why do they even like me?)

I have a family who loves me
(and I continue to disappoint them)

I am an excellent student
(I can’t focus in school)

I want to travel the world
(will I even live to do that?)

I’m fine
(I’m not fine)

I’m perfectly okay
(please help me)

there is more than one type of cold.
there’s the cold from that winter wind
it blows through the window
with the hole in it and it sneaks around
the curtains and comes up
through the floor
there’s the cold during the summer
when it’s ninety degrees in the shade
and you turn on the a/c in the car
and it numbs your fingers
and the backs of your arms
there’s the cold when you’re sick
and ten blankets couldn’t reach the chill
that’s made its way inside
and your eyelids feel the fever drifting
there’s the cold that arrives when you’re scared
when you’re nervous
it nestles just under the skin
and you’re losing feeling in your fingers
there is more than one type of cold
but you’re the only one
that ever made me freeze.

i've been stressed for so long
you've been there thru hardships
beside me as i cry
thank you for that

jokes were what we're used to
laughing all the pain away
forgetting the sad moments
thank you for that

you were a great person
you were always there for me
you were always so kind to me
thank you for that

i gave you my everything
and you gave yours too
we had the best moments
thank you for that

now you're with someone
someone you really like
i couldn't say what i truly feel for you now
because all i could say to you in the past was thank you

i thought that you understand how i felt
all the memories, much deeper than intended
everything we did, was a different perspective for me
i wish those three words, were easy to utter like all the thank you's i said

i guess thank you for all the memories
thank you for leading me on
thank you for letting me realize
that my thank you was for nothing