16h alex
i have no memory
of my mother
sitting at a sewing machine
and holding a needle
and thread
i remember shirts
with missing buttons
trousers with holes in them
and picking myself up
after every fall

and she will never understand
why i cannot speak to her
whenever something breaks me
  16h alex
it's just me
and my coffee
sitting at the corner
of your smile
alex 16h
he’ll tell me to breathe
but i already will be
still i’ll listen
for the soft, cruel memories
and their retreat
it’s never a battle
just a wandering army
watering plants that look as if
they’ll outgrow me one day
i hope to live to see
the maple rise
and think back to when my fingers
were wrapping themselves in cobwebs
just to see what kind of dust
they’d discover
one day our town will be far behind me
but it has always been proof
of what lies ahead.
acting. theatre is my passion; i truly am watering the seeds of my future. it will be bigger than i can even dream.
  6d alex
you fell in love with an alien
you comment on my
how i make you feel things
no human could do

well you, my love
you aren’t of this world either
but the difference between us
is that
you’re an angel
i don’t belong in heaven

i belong on mars
but i love you with all the otherworldliness i can offer.
alex 6d
and when you said
laughter is like a foreign language
i imagined that i was
teaching you how to
speak it
jcl. you said you don’t laugh much just in general, but i sat with you for two and a half hours and that’s all we did. i’ve missed this. i’ve missed you.
alex Jan 8
my *** have i mentioned
that it hurts
i’m consumed and waiting
in the belly of this beast
no one asks so
no one knows
and that’s the way
he likes it.
so so so so sad. it hurts in my back in my sides in my legs in my arms in my head in my face it just hurts hurts hurts i’m so sad it’s just depression nothing new
alex Jan 3
i’ve got a sweet tooth
that you steal every few days
and i roll this bitter taste
around on my tongue
and ******* it i’m just so sad
and i’m so ******* sorry
that you’ve made me hate you
because i love you
so much that you have too much power
i’ll always race to save you
and you know it
and that’s how it will be
forever and ever
and ever.
m. you’re never going to really get it.
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