You want me naked
In front of you
Standing in the light
You wanna see the scars I hide
You want me to bleed words
Because its in blood
We see pain
But am cover in blood
Your hiding in the dark
Where I can't see you
But you want me naked
You want me vulnerable and open
You think pain makes me weak
You think bleeding empties me
You think your the strong one
Because I can't see you
The real you
But the truth is
You want me
You see freedom in my scars
Like a vampire
Drawn to my blood
I stand here in the light
Naked and Bleeding.

Do you wanna talk about it?
I use to think .................
Takes a Breathe
I use to think I was ugly
I looked in the mirror
and only saw sadness
I never knew love
Never seen it
Never showed it
But when I smiled It was the brightest
Like a star
In the dark night sky
Do you wanna talk about it?
Because I know pain
The emptiness of asking
Why am I here?
and the disappointment of family
I am a diamond
Forge from the fires of hell
And I am beautiful
So lets talk about it.

What should I feel
Empty
Angry
Confused
I don't know
The truth is
Am numb
It hurted so much
I stop feeling
As a child
Staring out the window
See the other kids happy
Felt like I was in a prison
And if I scream
Nobody would hear
Because nobody cared
But my heart hoped on
Now am here
Teardrops on these pages
I don't miss you
I miss the man you should of been
I never got the chance to call you daddy
You took from me
Something that words cannot describe.

I saw three little kids
Two girls and a boy
Sitting on the stairs
By a shelter
That gives food and clothes
To the less fortunate
They were so young
Time stopped
As my mind
Like a film roll
Had flashbacks of my past
They reminded me
Of me and my family
Of me and my sisters
I wanted to hug them
Hold them
Cry with them
And tell them
That I know
And that it will be ok
There are somethings in life
That only God can understand
But as I travel these roads
Am trying to build bridges
That those behind me
Can survive
The hardship and reality of poverty

They tell us

When things go wrong

Pray

If you want change

Protest

Then they **** more of us

And we cry more

How much blood is enough

Are the profit made from guns

Worth the holes

We dig for our sons

Am crying tears

Because in 2016

We are still not free

And it hurts

Am tired of crying

Enough is Enough

Taken

Beaten

**** and ******

I hear your cries

From the ocean floor

Big ships came

Like a butterfly in its  cocoon

And you smile

Your innocents fades

As you sink down

Staring up

Like millions before and after you

What did we do to deserve this

Which king did we rob?

Which princess did we offend?

That our souls fill the ocean floor

I look out at the sea

And I see

The bones of my people

Their voices muffled by the white waves

But I hear them whisper

Let our blood not be in vain.

Being with you

Has made me stronger

Because sometimes

The ones you love

The hardest

Are the ones

Who gives the deepest pain

So am learning

Loving myself

Sometimes the best response

Is silence

I cant let you bring clouds

On my sunny day

Finally I can see

At some point

We have to face these demons

Head on

And defeat them

So am focus on me

No tears on my face

With you or not

I still have to breathe