every time i say your name out loud
i know i shouldn't
it's like voldemort
or something

or maybe you're my
candyman
because i see your face in mirrors
when i say it

and when i don't

i'm sorry i'm not good enough yet

maybe someday
i will be

Your garden is trying to **** me,
It reminds me of all the beauty I do not possess

You love me
When the alcohol kicks in
Then take it back because
it wasnt the real you talking

You miss me
When you get high
Because your lows
Include me

You **** me
When your sober
Then ignore me
When we pass by each other

I wish i was what you were addicted to