Another day,
Another tear .
He did not notice ,
He never notices anything .
Sadness deepens ;
Wounds never heal .
Another unkind word ,
Disappointment increases.
Neither Inspirational phrases,
Nor Prayers are longer enough .

I am tired….
So desperately tired…
It feels like screaming in silence
Chained , enslaved…
Hoping for a spell that would set me free.
I am tired…
Desperately tired…
Dragging disappointment
As shackles… disheartening the soul.
Exhausted…
Trapped in maze build by distress…
Bruised by vicious phrases uttered by the ego
of those who can barely see a worthy heart.
I am tired …
Desperately tired…
Wearing an Arlecchino mask …
Not only to hide the marks
But to shield myself from future harm.
I am tired …
Desperately tired…
Watching the same scenes in my head…
Over and over again…
Thinking´ What did I do? What did I do?´
The words ´NOTHING! NOTHING!´ bang in my head.
So I turn to the good book …
And Know I can´t let go ,
I cannot turn the other cheek anymore.
I know I am wrong …
But I am so tired….
So desperately tired….