Broken crayons still color,
She'd say, "I'd be ****** if I forget,
And let the water wash my spark away."

Jumped where the tides barely speak,
She'd say, "I'd be ****** if I left,
And deaf to the calling waves I keep."

Heavier heartbeats marked the tide,
She'd say, "I'd be ****** if it didn't,
And erase the memories I couldn't hide."

Stones in her thoughts sank the soul,
She'd say, "I'd be ****** if that's true,
And sinking in the shallow end? That ain't what I do."

Dragged into the darker tide,
She'd say, "I'd be ******, but this hurts,
And I'll drown happily with my heart, embracing the burn."

Broken crayons still color,
She'd say, "I'd be ****** but it's true,
I ain't wax, mama!
I'm shattered glass, betrayed, in my break."

Is it so bad to want what everyone wants?
To long for something knowing you'll never have it the way you want?
(Because you did have it didn't you?)
Never enough to overcome the tremors of fright
Never enough to be Cinderella for more than a night
And is it so bad that it'll never be the way you want it to be
Is it so bad that the cause of all my ruin is me?

Is it so bad to want what everyone wants?
To long for that feeling of being longed for?
Knowing that the thought of it is terrifying
Knowing it'll always leave you crying
And is it so bad that despite the fears i'll get drawn to it
Is it so bad that i'll hang like the pendelum but never quit?

Is it so bad to want what everyone wants?
To be considered "it" for just a guy?
When you're supposed to be "chill"
When you don't "fw labels" you tell him
And is it so bad that he'll still ignite a raging fire within
Is it so bad that drowning in ***** is what keeps it burning?

Is it so bad to want what everyone wants?
To experience the unrequited love they write about?
Smiling under the sun in beach's paradise
Smiling into his sheets when he makes that sound i like
And is it so bad that i'll cry when he gets down on one knee
Is it so bad that i'll still say no when he proposes to me?

Is it so bad to want what everyone wants?
To get teased by my friends for having a boyfriend?
Going to his games and cheering him on
Going to his place when the day felt off
And is it so bad that i'll leave him stranded in the storm
Is it so bad that there will be a blank box on my baby's birth form?

Is it so bad to want what everyone wants?
To have someone to watch TV with candles around?
Giving him an attitude when he gets me fancy **** he knows i despise
Giving him my favorite look when he takes a portion of my fries
And is it so bad that our story will never be a rom-com
Is it so bad that i won't choose him when he asks me to prom?

Is it so bad to want what everyone wants?
To have his haven become my heaven?
Have all the late night conversations and cuddles
Have all the intricate moments and snuggles
And is it so bad that after the *** i'll return to my bed
Is it so bad that i'll write a poem yet still call him a good friend?