Black & White.
In the middle
of the night,
took off my
disguise
and watched
as our love
slowly
dies.

Love, what happened
to us?
We crumbled
and turn into
dust.

You'll wake up,
alone
with love
greeting you
with a
different
kind
of
tone.

She's happy.
So why?
Why should I
be not,
every time
I see her smile?

Why, should I
envy those people
who makes her happy
right now?

Why?
Am I left
here
on my own
trying to
move on from
decisions I've made
&
memories
we've shared
together.

Was it worth it??

Was it satisfying?

To break someone's
heart, mind & soul
in the process of
finding or achieving
the true love
you've always
dreamed of?

you don't believe in a God
you don't believe in a Greater Good
but the fact that you believe in me
makes me believe in a Greater Entity

Am I a good guy?
Am I the good guy?
Am I a main character not quite out of the first chapter?
These struggles I go through
Do people root for me?
Will I do something with this life of mine?

If a person was to suddenly know everything about me
Without getting to know me
Would that be the only unbiased opinion?
And what would they think?
Would they back peddle in disgust?
Would they want to get to know me?

Would I give my life for another?

Will I even be remembered?

Does she know how much I love her?
I tell her
But can I even translate the immensity of it
Into words?

What will I be?
Who will I be?

What kind of movie is my life?
A romcom?
A drama?
Action/adventure?
Dramedy?
Or perhaps
Since I'm asking all these questions
With no clear answer
A mystery

Is this one the last one?
Is this the one I will spend my life with?

Who will read these thoughts?
And who will appreciate them?