Wasted Youth

Wasted Youth Oct 2015

I watched you grow while I'm waiting to stand on my own
I'm still waiting, and sinking
The rain blocks air from my throat
Time goes regardless of if I'm growing heartless
You left me undone
I'm waiting for someone to pick the pieces up
All I can do is push them under a rug

You're soring, but I'm barely crawling
I want to let go and slip away
I know there's no place for me
And I don't want to know how you've been
But I'll still ask
I won't wait forever for this transition to pass
Any longer I'll let go and sink
My undeserving body will lose the air I stole
When the bubbles stop I'll finally give back to the world

#loneliness #emo #forgotton

Wasted Youth Jun 2015

Stretch

Tightning these loose ends will never be snug all around
Something will always slip through my grasp
As I'm picking up the pieces you'll still sleep sound
I'll always find a way to change but I'll never transform into who I want to be

Things will go fine for a while and it seems I'll never cease to smile
When things are going well I always seem to find a way to make it hell
Does anyone try as hard as me to make sure they have personality?

Find me where I don't want to be found
Talk to me when I'm lost without words
Hear me where I don't think I'll be heard
Live as though I never existed at all

I guess I'll see you around...

#depressed #alone #dead #hopeless #emo

Wasted Youth Feb 2015

Just Good Byes

What I'm forced into is cold
I don't belong
I can never fathom what I'm told
How can I be on my own?
No condolences, just good byes
No direction, no hope
Everyone can see the torment in my eyes

Cast astray to change that'll stay the same
I'm walking into a room full of cliffs blind
This noose fits my neck better than I'll ever fit in
The past no longer matters the future is what I want to leave behind
How can I be on my own?
I possess fear of the unknown

18...

#suicide #depressed #alone #emo

Wasted Youth Feb 2015

Chalk Dust

I'm suffocating in a old classroom because I have a chalkboard covered with equations of me trying to figure out
Who the
****
You're talking
To
Like that

Weak I was but I'm strong know
Mind and body and my fist have an itch that can only be soothed by burying them in your face
*****
This heart that never intends harm is calling for
**ARMS

#anger #grunge #rage #emo #punk

Wasted Youth Feb 2015

Sweet Pain

I yell to be heard
No more will I be invisible
I'm not scared
I will rise above the rest
The base in my voice boils the blood in my chest

As I lay exhausted from my efforts to be appreciated
I hear them speak as though I've never spoke at all
I saw them walk through me like I was a ghost
If I'm a ghost why can't I walk through walls
Pain is my only escape that listens to me most

EEEEYAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGHH

#sad #depressed #tired #rage #emo

Wasted Youth Jan 2015

An Honor

She's so perfect for me even though the circumstances aren't perfect... She has no idea how much she's worth and it's an honor to help show her...

"When the moon light hits your bright eyes I go blind"

"I'm terrified and would you mind if I sat next to you and watched you smile"

-Fall Out Boy

#love #trust #meaning #self-worth

Wasted Youth Jan 2015

Should I fall in or should I step back?

I never thought I could feel this again
To have a blue sky even when it rains
I know that I should calm down

My oh my the seasons have changed
Autumn passed and yet another winter has left me deranged
Is it love or is it just a breath of fresh air?
Never before have I met someone so rare
Should I fall in or should I step back?

Any distance is too far from my arms
I'm glad that we both leave each other so charmed
Her lips can flip all my frowns
Her voice makes me float and leaves my soul earthbound

I know that I need to **calm down

It's been years

#love #soulmate #emo