there you were,
standing in your
yellow aura
and i blinked.
and all that was
left was this gold dust,
shimmering
and the ethereal
shadow of what
we could have been.

i loved you.
i still love you.
i always will.

the sunshine of your
smile will be imprinted
in the palette of my mind
as the softest and brightest
of daffodils.
your eyes will be
painted with
aureate flecks
and chocolate
and your hair a collective
shade of the deepest
parts of my soul, dark
and distinct against
the daylight
that collapses

                    to
         its
            
knees
when it reaches your cheeks.

I outline you in my heart
with the clearest acryllic
so as not to ever forget
your form and the
way that it nestled to mine.

You, my darling
are the color that I used
to despise the most,
because that color represents
a part of me I could
never understand and love
before I met you


my forever sunflower.

maybe it is just too scary to open up,
the judging looks invalidate what you feel
the fear completely destroys you and engulfs
all the courage and strength that's left
inside the wounded body of a pretend soldier

or maybe not.

maybe we really got each other's back,
softly patting of heads, and caressing of the hair
sweet kisses blown in the air
things that happen when we're together
parting ways, we become strangers

or maybe not.

maybe it is just all in my mind,
that we're on the other side of bad
not the worst
we're good together but not the best
we fit each other's missing piece
but hurt each other so we could fit
in the world we think we should be, at ease

or maybe not.

maybe the truth really creates a fool,
with eyes, it's still blind
could see but refuses to accept

maybe i'm a fool,
who believes i'm not.

I'm a poem in the back of your notebook,
the one that slipped your mind.
You began writing it with the fiercest of intentions,
but all forgotten once something else caught your attention.
It happens with all things in time.

It's truly
a
chaotic
thing
to
suddenly
see

starlight,
heaven,
and
everything

in someone's eyes