At night,
When all my walls fall down
And I start to strip my shields
Layer by layer
Tear by tear
I unstitch my wounds
And I find you there
Under my skin
You and my misery
Misery that's caused by the fact that I denied myself the pleasure of loving you
So many times
That now I can only live with that fact
That I can't act
That I wonder
If I stare at the phone long enough
If I pray hard enough
If I wish on the right stars
at the right moments of time
Will you recognize my existence
Will I hear your voice
And every atom of me jump when I hear you say you miss me
What are the chances
Of finding something you lost once again
I wonder till my tears run out
Till the sun rises
And my walls are rebuilt
And you no longer exist
Till night.