I stared at my phone all day today
You know I'm hurt; You said you'd call

But now I know that if you do
You're calling for you

Please wait for just a short moment
While I find the right words to say
If you can't love me when I'm broken
Then maybe it's better this way

Please tell me I'm more than just beautiful
Because beauty makes me feel so wrong
A pretty face will only get me attention
And when I'm down I can only be so strong

I can't tell you I'm hurting so badly
I can't stop the pain that's inside
I can't let you down with my problems
I can't do anything but hide

Please don't force me to be happy
I can fake a smile if you need
But I'll hurt more than you'll ever know
And I'll suffer silently instead of plead

There are no right words for this song
There are no right words for my pain
I'm sorry I can't be what you wanted
I'm sorry I can't be happy again.

Please wait for just a short moment
While I find the right words to say
If you can't love me when I'm broken
Then 'love you' isn't what you should say

I envy those with passion
an avenue in which to shine

You say I'm irreplaceable.

Where else will you find
unconditional love
a nonjudgmental ear
and genuine selflessness?

You care when it's convenient.
I know a lot is going on in your life.
"The struggle is real," you tell me.
So much is going on in mine
yet I still bend over backwards.
For you.
For anyone who "needs" me to.
Sometimes you ask.
Sometimes you don't.
But I will always come when you need me to.

You can be selfish.
I'm angry.
But I can't be.
I am the one who can't stop myself from doing whatever I can to help you.
You are my dysfunctional, amazing, beautiful friend.

We're both not perfect.
I'm closed.
You're open.
I'm always hurting.
You're always dramatic.
I overgeneralize.
You're superstitious.

Apart or together, we stay close.
Sometimes I think the only thing that could tear us apart is me.
The balance of our friendship is off.
And I am about to fall.
I don't want to take you down with me.
I never, ever want to disappoint you, or hurt you.
But I can't stop the inevitable.
I've already disappointed myself.

I hurt you?
This isn't a competition.
When I say something, your response is you have it worse.

I'm sorry I make you feel like a bad friend.
It's my fault.

I'll spare you the pain of my friendship.
I don't have the strength to make the sacrifices anymore.
Even though I love you.

I really do.

Sometimes, I wonder if you ever loved me.
You say you do, but why can't I feel it?

This love story could turn into a tragedy.
Nothing is set in stone.
We are not entitled.
If only our lives could be
Long
Happy
Healthy
Together

When good things have never lasted in the past, what will make this time any different?

Faith.
Love.
Trust.
Hard work.
Dedication.

Hope overcomes the darkness.

I can tell you about
self-loathing
but all I want
is to remember
love
&
live
my life
but how
do you remember
a love you've
never
experienced?
and live
a life that's always been
**empty