When your arms wrapped around me,
I felt at home.
I felt invincible.
I felt love.
I felt warm.
I felt something nobody else ever gave me.

I haven't felt that way since you left.

I'm sorry I'm not pretty.
I'm sorry I'm not everything you ever wanted.
I'm sorry I'm not lovable.
I'm sorry you can't see me with anyone.
I'm sorry I'm depressed.
I'm sorry I'm anxious.
I'm sorry I'm completely ****** up.
I'm sorry I'm not okay.

but I'm not sorry I gave you every ounce of me.

The biggest lies I've ever told

"I'm fine."
"I'm tired."
"I just want to be alone."
"No, I'm not sad."


"I love you."

but the worst one,
**"I can do this."

Everytime I hear your name,
my heart skips a beat.

Don't tell me to man up

When I didn't want to wake.
When it took every ounce of strength not to break.
When the thoughts in my head were slowly killing me.
When I was in so much pain I couldn't see.

So next time before you tell me to "man up",
put yourself in my shoes
so I can tell you to man up, too.

I need a break.

From school
From love
From depression
From anxiety
From the thoughts in my mind
From friends


But I never got one.

Instead, I **broke